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Raped, by the Silences…

We are raped, by the silences, because, we’re, afraid to tell anybody what had, happened to us, because, if we tell our truths, the outside world will only, ostracize us more, saying, that it’s our fault, that we shouldn’t have, behaved too provocatively in front of that man, that we were, just, asking for it, therefore, we’d, kept our silences.

what we were…picture found online…查看來源圖片

Raped, by the silences, we were, because, we’re, too afraid to talk, too afraid for our lives, as well as the lives of, those we loved and cared about, and, can’t even begin to imagine the shame they will feel, if our stories, busted out into the open!

Raped, by the silences, there’s, no way this will, ever come to an end, because, those predators are still, lurking, waiting, for their chances to, attack, and even though, we only come out, during the daytime, sometimes, it feels, like nights…

Raped, by the silences, we were, we were all, victims before, but, I’d, managed to, turn myself, into a god DAMN survivor here, I will, NEVER be quieted, be silenced again!!! what we are now…

what we have the potentials of becoming…picture found online

Raped, by the silences, there’s, nothing we can do, to change the past, change what’s already been done to us (and no, we NEVER enjoyed it!!!).  Raped, by the silences, no we don’t, keep our lips sealed, because what was shameful, wasn’t US, it was, what was, done to us!

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Because You Don’t Want to Die Alone…

Because you don’t want to die alone, seeing how, nobody WANTS to be alone, when they’re, still alive, why would anybody want to die, all alone on her/his own?  Because you don’t want to die alone, you’d started, imposing your imminent death onto someone you knew from long ago, and that person, was the only one, that you’d known, who’d, come to, your beck and call.

And because s/he allows you to control her/him like that, you’d, started taking advantage of the fact of how s/he couldn’t, turn you down or away.  Unbeknownst, you’d, started, using manipulative ways, to control the other person.  Because you don’t want to die alone, but, you know what, EVERYBODY dies alone, nobody (not even G-O-D) can help you through the passage from life TO death!

Because you don’t want to die alone, such, a selfish motive, still, you’d, used it, as a VALID excuse, a form of, rationalization, of how and why people, should treat you kind, because you’re dying, therefore, you DESERVED to be shown, some extra kindness, right???  WRONG!!!

Because you don’t want to die alone, well, when I die, I’d much rather be, alone, on my own, and, someone will find me, a little while, AFTER I’m dead and gone, and follow everything I would’ve, specified, in my will, to handle MY final affairs…

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Forgiveness Found, with an “I Love You”…

It’s, just too easy, to forgive, when someone says, “I love you”, isn’t it?  But, wouldn’t that be, the other person’s excuse of getting her/himself out of the troubles s/he got in?

Forgiveness found, with an “I love you”, it’s, unreal, as you can be more than one-HUNDRED percent certain, that whatever bad deed the individual is apologizing for, will reoccur, because that, is how it goes!

Forgiveness found, with an “I love you”, yeah, I used to fall for that too (not really, I’d just, allowed people to apologize to me, and just, let them SLIDE, how young I’d been from before, right???), but not anymore, NOT since my DEATH, circa late September to early October of 2008…

So, unless you want to still get STUCK in the vicious cycles of your abuse, yeah, sure, why not, forgive that certain someone for all the done you wrongs, with their poisonous “I love you”!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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The Predatory Photographer Received Money for a Social, Out on Bail

And, dumb BLONDE BIMBOS are still, falling for it???  You’ve GOT to be shitting me here!!!  From the Front Page Sections, translated…

The photographer, Chuang-Sen Mu (a false name) started posting a series of “orgy” pornography, after the Taipei District Attorney’s Offices looked into it, they’d found that there were, multiple wires to his account, suspected that Mu used the parties and charged those who’d attended the events a fee, that he committed the crime solicitations, in order to understand where the funding came, they’d searched Mu’s residence, and took him into custody to interrogate, after the interrogations, the D.A. posted Mu’s bail at $60,000N.T.s, and placed him under house arrest.

Based off of understanding, the D.A.’s office and the police found multiple wire transfers in Mu’s personal accounts, ranging from a couple of thousand dollars to $15,000N.T.s.  In order to understand where the money came from, and what it was, used for, and who else may have been involved, the police went to search Mu’s home in Xinyi District, took his cell phone, his hard drive, and USB into evidence, other than taking him into custody to interrogate, the police also called Lu, and nine others in as witnesses.  Mu claimed, that the photos were for the sake of art, that he’d not made any money from the photos.

Based off of understanding, the witnesses included Lu (age 30), who was Mu’s former girlfriend, in the police inquiries, she’d claimed that the money was for the electric appliances, that it wasn’t for the party at the motel.  The other men who’d wired to Mu, Lu, Chang, and a woman, Chen, claimed that they’d had him buy items on their behalf, or that it’d been too long, that they’d, forgotten what the wires were for, they all denied having been involved in the sex party.

The four witnesses were all sent home last night, another five witnesses are abroad, or in the southern parts of the country, the D.A.’s Office planned to call them in one by one later.

Those who know said, that Mu posted the news of the party on social network, and that those who wanted to attend needed to wire money to the account, after the confirmations were received, then, he’d sent the specifics of where, when, and the locations of the motels, by private messages.

On December 19th, 2017, a member of the online community cut and pasted Mu’s account, said that a photographer was hosting an orgy, and the photos of six women, seven men involved in an orgy, Mu even gloated, that this activity is at “the Cheating Central”.

After the news got out, the head of district attorney’s office in Taipei, Sing believed, that Mu had broken the laws of social order, and, had the women and children specialty squad to look into the case further.

And so, this, is bad, and, because there are more and more in the world right now, who’s, addicted to S-E-X, that is why these sorts of shit keep happening, and, it will keep on happening, because, catching this ONE loser, is merely, the TIP of an iceberg, there are, more and more of those sexual predators who are still, in hiding, waiting, in the dark, to see if they’re, to come out to “play” or not…

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The First Chair of Buddhism Was Exposed for Rape

Predators, still, disguised as men of G-O-D here!!!  BAD, BAD, B-A-D news, off the Front Page Sections, translated…

MeToo trended through China, into the Buddhist Realms.  Two former supervisors of the Long-Chuan Temple in Beijing wrote a combined 95-page document, exposing the high-up officials’ rape of the female followers.  The temple issued a statement, stated that the two men had, given the values of Buddhism a bad rap, that their behaviors are considered, criminal.

The Department of Religion of China issued a statement on their official website, that the department of religion is looking closely at these serious accusations, and is starting the investigations of the matter.

中國佛教協會會長、全國政協常委釋學誠近日被控性侵多人。(圖取自學誠法師微博www.weibo.com)the photo fo the RAPIST, disguised, as a follower of Buddhism, from online…

The press in Hong Kong reported, that there were the Chinese media that wanted to take a closer look at the temple but, the area where the temple was located was, sealed off.  Reason being there had been continual rain, that there will be the dangers of landslide.  A lot of the Buddhist masters of the temple are highly educated.

the photo of the accused, attending the conference in March of 2014, from UDN.com…

The two whistleblowers were both engineering doctorates from Chingwha University, one is Liu, he once worked as the master’s close secretary, the supervisor of the temple, in charge of the legal matters in the temple; another, Du, who’d worked the high up positions of the temples, he’s currently the head monk of a temple locally.  The two men collaborated on a ninety-five page long document, that was posted online.

The contents of the document included the records of the master’s chat by WeChat with the female students, it’d mentioned the illegal behaviors of the master, including texting the female students, using a multitude of ways, to control the female monks, the method of “dualities”.  It’d also specified that the temple had the problems of being an illegal building, the undisclosed funding, called out to the authorities, to pay attention, to help save the “evil master”.

There was a precedent three years ago.  A head monk in the Shaolin Temple in Henan, was exposed of having an illegitimate daughter, that he’d misused the temple privately, after a year of investigation, the Communist Chinese government believed that the follower had been, supporting the master, but it’d, fitted to the Buddhist beliefs, and that the master had managed the stock options of the liquid assets that he’d not taken any bonuses, not gotten paid a salary, nor was he a part of the management team.  In the end, the man wasn’t charged.

And, because this person who was sexually abused spoke up and out, that was why, the rest of the women who were sexually abused, molested or raped started speaking out too, because, they took from this person’s example, and realized, that if they keep things hushed up, it’ll only, make these rapist think they can do as they wished to someone else, and this also showed, how these men of G-O-D, are actually, DEVILS in disguise!!!

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His Wife Had Committed Suicide, Because the Man He Was Seeing Pressured Her to Divorce Her Husband

The results, of the adultery with another man she met from work, from the Front Page Sections, translated…

A man Lee started dating a waitress at a food shop for over a year then broke up with her, after he’d learned that Cheng was already married, he’d forced her to divorce, and, Cheng became suicidal, took a lot of pills to kill herself, and was rushed to the hospital.  As Cheng’s husband learned that his wife’s suicide attempt was caused by another man, he’d sued Lee for obstruction of family, and the Kaohsiung District Court found Lee guilty of adultery, sentenced him to five months in prison, and he can pay $150,000N.T. to get out of serving the time, and he can still appeal the case.

The verdict pointed out, that Lee (age 40) who works as a voluntary traffic officer, in 2014, met up with Cheng, the waitress, Cheng had kept her marital status a secret and dated him for over a year; after they broke up, Lee learned that Cheng was already married from the other waitresses who worked in the shop, in 2016, he’d invited Cheng to a motel, to have sex with her three times, and asked her to divorce, or that he will show their affair to the open, tell others, Cheng was suspected to not being able to handle the pressures, she’d attempted suicide by swallowing the pills on the early morning hours of August 23rd of last year, and as she was rushed to the hospital, her affair busted out.

As Lee was brought in for questioning, he’d stated, that Cheng had lied about her marital status and gone out on dates with him, that after the first breakup, they’d not contacted each other for over a year, during which time, her coworker told him she was already married, and later, Cheng told him she will take the responsibilities, and so, he’d gone to a motel and had sex with her again.

Cheng also admitted to going three times to the motels to have sex with Lee, the judge believed, that Lee showed a total lack of respect of Cheng’s marriage to her husband, obstructed her family life, and gave Cheng a ton of pressures, in the trials, Lee plead guilty, but didn’t reach a settlement agreement with Cheng’s husband, and found him guilty of three charges of adultery, with two months per count, a combined sentence of five months, and he will be able to pay $150,000N.T. to get out of serving time in jail, the case can still be appealed.

And, because this man felt uneven, that, was why he’d tried to make the woman divorce her husband, and the woman here, was still NO victim, because she’s the one who’d decided to have an affair with him, it’s just, that she’d attempted suicide, which probably makes her seem like the victim of this case, but she really isn’t, because if she hadn’t had the affair, then, everything that followed the events, would’ve, NEVER have happened!

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She Was Mine, a Child, Lost in Time…

She was mine, a child, lost in time, and time has, its, death-grip around her throat, slowly, suffocating her, choking her, into that slow death.

She was mine, a child, lost in time, the one who’d, never had the chance of being “formed”, and yet, I still, loved (in the past), love (in the present tense!) her so very much, simply because, she was, mine, and there need not be, any other reasons.

She was mine, a child, lost in time, and, she’d, drowned slowly, in the river of time, and, there was, nothing I could do, but to, kneel by the riverbeds, and cried all my tears, and my tears, in turn, formed another, grander river, then the river of time, my child had been, drowned to death in.

She was mine, a child, lost in time, the one who’d, never made it, the one who’d been dead, way before her time! And, there was still, NOTHING I could’ve done, or can do about this death that I’d been carrying, since 2008………

She was mine, a child, lost in time, and, in lost time’s embrace, I know, she’ll, grow up safe and sound, and besides, it’s better, that my daughter stays DEAD, because this world is so full of FUCKING shit, and I surely as HELL wouldn’t want what had happened to me, to happen to her too!

She was mine, a child, lost in time, and, time shall, keep her safe and sound, untouched, and, she wouldn’t lose her innocence as I did, when I was, a very young child myself………

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