All the Hurtful Things You’d Said to Me

I wish that I can say, that none of it mattered, but, it’d still, affected me, but, I’m slowly, becoming, desensitized to it.  All the hurtful things you’d said to me, had become, something, that fueled me, those awful words that had, gotten too deep, into my ear canals, had finally, made me deaf!

what it felt like at the beginning…not my photo…

All the hurtful things you’d said to me, after so many years, it’d, still hurt, but, a little less every single day, and, I suppose, that one day, all the hurtful things you’d said to me, will NO longer affect me, it’s just, that that day, hadn’t, “arrived” yet…

All the hurtful things you’d said to me, they don’t matter now, I’d become stronger, hearing all the hurtful things you’d said to me, and, they no longer, hurt me anymore, they’d become, nothing more than those cold winter winds that cuts through the skin on the surfaces now……………

and now…

no longer “registering”, ‘cuz I’d, tuned you O-U-T!!!

All the hurtful things you’d said to me, they’d, become, this never-healing infection of my childhood days, and growing up, I’d, carried all my scars that marked my body, and now, as I’d become, an adult, those scars became scabs, and, underneath those ugly scabs, there are, newly, grown-in layers of skin, waiting to come out.

I’m Not a Porcelain Doll, the Reflections in the Doll Corner

This morning, the Porcelain climbed off that high shelf that her owner kept her on display, toward the floor, and, she stood there, in front of the mirror (b/c it’s a girl’s room, and ALL girls want to get dolled up, don’t they???), and, she’d looked at her self in the mirror, left, and right, like how a scientist is examining something s/he’d just, discovered…

I’m not a porcelain doll, Porcelain mumbled to herself, although I looked delicate, fragile, easily shattered, but, I have, a heart of a Raggedly Ann, you can SHAKE, toss me, and let me DROP to the floor, I still won’t BREAK!

not my photo…

I’m not a porcelain doll, the Porcelain decided, that she will NOT be fragile like she’d always been, she’d wanted her owner (a little girl???), to pick her up, and play with her without worrying about shattering her, and so, Porcelain started changing, metamorphosing, and, the little girl who’d owned her, hadn’t seen her, she’d, forgotten about the existence of this particular Porcelain she loved so much.

not my photo…

I’m not a porcelain doll, I won’t break if you shake me too hard, and, even if you tossed me high up in the air, and I come down, landing on my head, I still won’t CRACK wide open!

But, although Porcelain had, made up HER mind on not to break anymore, she still can’t change her physical self, and, surely enough, she’d, shattered, for the last and final time, and, we are all gathered here today, to MOURN the loss, of our dear friend, Porcelain, she was, a very good doll, she just can’t get satisfied, being WHAT and WHO she is, that, is why, she had “died”………

The Washington Post Criticized that Obama Had Brain-Washed the Americans “What Happened in Syrian is None of Our Business”

International affairs, is it, our business or is it not???  From the Front Page Sections, translated…

The commentaries on Washington Post pointed out, that the most accidental achievement that President Obama has internationally was that he made the Americans feel, that the tragedies in Syrian was not the Americans’ responsibilities.

The commentaries aid, that ten years ago, the conflicts in Darfur, Sudan had caused humanitarian problems, the American churches got involved in saving Darfur; in 2001, the IS destroyed the two most precious statues of Buddha, it’d shocked the world.

Today, the IS bombed the ancient sites of Palmyra; half of Syrians citizens are without homes, and over a quarter of a million were killed, but, in the U.S. the calls for “Saving Darfur” back then wasn’t changed into “Saving Syria”.

The Americans are not enthusiastic about saving Syrian, one of the reason being the president, Obama.  He kept consoling the people, that not doing anything is the intelligent, and most fitting to the morals.  He’d often stated, that there’s nothing that the U.S. can do, that the forces fighting in Syrian are a bunch of “doctors, farmers, and pharmacists”.

He’d also said, that if U.S. intervened, it can only make matters worse.  When he was interviewed by the “New Republic” Magazines in 2013, he’d stated, “I’m thinking about our limits, not our warring abilities or our capabilities.”

He’d asked, “If there are millions being slaughtered in Syrian, and, tens of thousands being murdered in Congo, which country do I offer aid to?”, it’d also hinted, that if the U.S. can’t solve every single problem in the world, then, maybe, they should just, stand by and watch.

Obama promised, that he will take actions, if the U.S. can no longer cope with just watching from the sidelines, the goings on in Syrian, or when something truly awful happens; training the resistance army, set up safety zones in the borders of Turkey.  But, once the heat subsided, then, the plans would be abandoned, or downsized.

The Washington Post pointed out, that the supporters of Obama don’t see what he was doing as a “necessary evil”, which was, a great achievement.  And, the U.S. finally led the world with its brains and NOT its emotions, and learned to be humble, to not be egotistical.  The realists pointed out, that when the U.S. is guided by the ideals and the emotions, then, troubles appear, like the black hawk helicopters getting shot down in Somalia.

The media said, that if Obama’s doing nothing can yield better results, then, they have nothing more to say.  But, the actual situation had turned into a humanitarian disaster.  Iraq had become a nation of terrorists, and, Syria now has chemical weapons being used, the Islamic Nation is calling on millions of foreign soldiers, and is already, threatening the safety of the U.S. soil, and the crowds of refugees are causing European instability.

So, why do you think that President Obama is now, taking this laissez faire approach, when apparently, the WORLD is requiring that the U.S. get intervened?  Perhaps, because, the president is now, realizing, that the trend of U.S. behavior in involving itself in war in history, like the war in Iraq when Bush was the president, along with all the wars that don’t involve the U.S. originally, and, butting in, in all those times in history only caused U.S. casualties, and, Obama’s not doing anything is also, pissing people off, but, examine the events in history, like how the war in Iraq had worked out for the Bush presidency…

Sex Shops are Digitizing, a Simple Man Was Scammed $400,000 N.T.

Those who fell are still just plain STUPID, no offense, but, feel free to take TONS, from the Front Page Sections, translated…

The tricks of the skinning bars getting the simple men had been currently, duplicating online; a man who’d started playing online games after work, Tong fell prey to the claim of a female friend he’d met online that told him, “she’d taken money from the loan sharks, to pay for her mother’s all-too-high cancer treatment bills, and was now being forced to sell”, he’d handed $400,000N.T. to the woman, NO questions asked, hoping to get her out from the bad situation she claimed to be trapped by, until his mother reminded him, that, was when he realized, that he’d been scammed, he’d worked with the police, to help catch the woman, Hu who was picking up the cash.

The police said, the thirty-seven year-old man, Tong is an electrician and a plumber, after work, he’d gone home, and play online games, with little to NO social activities, he’d never had a girlfriend either; Tong’s mother found that her son started loaning his money to the “girlfriend” whom he’d only met just once, blamed his son, “You’re too dumb!”, the patrol officers tried to alleviate the tension between the mother and the son, said, “It should be best, that he finds a wife soon!”

The police found, that Tong had met a woman named, “Lulu” in an online game, and, “Lulu” called him up, almost every single day for the three months, and sent him a photograph of her, with very little clothes on; they’d started calling one another boy and girlfriend too, it’d made Tong fall deeply in love with her.

During the first half of last month, Lulu told him that her mother is hospitalized because of cancer, and that the fees for treatment was extremely high, for the sake of her mother, she’d taken out a $250,000N.T. loan from the loan sharks, and now, not only could she not manage to pay up what she’d borrowed, and she kept getting calls from the loan sharks on the interests that she’d owed them, and so she could only work in the bars, to pay up her debts, she’d begged him to loan her some money.

In order to help “Lulu” get out of the fire pits, Tong met up with her, and the very first time they’d met, he’d handed her $150,000N.T.; the scam ring sent Hu (age 37) as Lulu, to pick up the money, and Hu had even asked him, “Do you want to sleep with me?”

Then, Tong discovered, that Lulu is way too old, doesn’t look like she is in her twenties, and told her no, after they’d had lunch, they’d gone separate ways, but, afterwards, “Lulu” called Tong up again, said that she was once again, “pursued by the loan sharks”, and asked for a loan from him again.

This month, Lulu called Tong up once again, and Tong’s mother found out, and immediately notified the police.  Not long thereafter, Lulu called him up, to ask to borrow another $150,000N.T., Tong worked with the police, took along fake money to meet with her, and the police that were ambushing close by managed to arrest Hu who was there to pick up the money.  After Hu was arrested, she’d turned off her cell phone, but, Tong continued receiving calls from Lulu, that, was when he realized, that it was, all a scam.

Hu cried, said that after she divorced, she’d taken care of her two children all alone, and she still had to look after both her parents, but she had a prior in fraud, which makes it hard for her to get a job, that, was why she’d become a hooker for multiple years; a man Lee, who was her john, invited her to be a “driver”, and each time, she’d gotten $8,000N.T. for payment, which was four times MORE than she was making as a hooker, that, was why she’d put herself in harm’s way.  She said, that she didn’t make the calls, that before she went to pick up the cash, “Lee” had told her tricks, told her to claim to be “Lulu”, so she won’t bust her cover.

We still have this DUMB ass F-I-S-H who took the bait willingly, and, how many god DAMN times must this sort of SHIT happen, for all you LOSERS to know, that there’s NO such thing, and, because all you losers fall so god DAMN easily to those stupid S-O-B stories, that, is why women are used, as the bait!

A Product of His Enviornmental Interactions

He was, a product of his environmental interactions, there’s NO denying that!  Being a product of his environmental interactions, he’d worked hard, to get along with, to adapt, to everything that’s happening around him, because that, is how he would survive.

A product of his environmental interactions, he’d fallen victim, and, once that had happened, he found himself, STUCK, and, NO matter how hard he’d tussled and rustled, he just, couldn’t, get back out again.  A product of his environmental interactions, during the last parts of his life, he’d come to understand, that if one is to ge4t along well with the world, then, one must make oneself malleable, so one can deal with the changes around oneself…

A product of his environmental interactions, he’d become, and, he’d fallen, to that mindset, and, NO matter how hard he’d tried, he just, couldn’t get out, he’s now, STUCK, for good!

A product of his environmental interactions, there’s no way, for him, to rid himself off that, because NO matter where he goes, he is right there, the consequences of his life, will always, be right there, behind him, ready to, catch him, RIGHT in the A-C-T………

 

 

 

Just Relax

Yeah, uh, easy for you to say!!!  Translated…

Awhile, around the beginning of the spring season, my beloved cat, Boo-Boo became crippled.

He had retracted his right front leg, and, used his other three legs to walk, seeing my dearly beloved Boo-Boo who used to walk with such grace becoming a three-legged cat, my heart wrenched for him.

The doctor said it was arthritis, and so, I’d started administering the medications; but, when the doctor was treating his joints, he’d found out, that there was something wrong with his kidneys too, then, we must treat his kidneys first, otherwise, the medication will become even MORE straining on him, and so, the treatment methods became epidermal injections on a daily basis; and still in this process, the doctor found that there is also, heart and pulmonary problems that Boo-Boo has, and then, treating the heart and pulmonary problems became the top priority, otherwise, the epidermal injections will prove to be even MORE straining on his lungs and heart……and, just like so, feeling helpless, I’d taken my Booboo cat, who didn’t want to, between the two vets, but, his crippled leg, it’d not only gotten treated, there’s also, an assortment of OTHER kinds of conditions.

Finally one day, right around the time I’m supposed to take Booboo to the doctors, he’d found a hiding place underneath my bed, and refused to come back out again.

I knew, that he’d had enough, me too, but, what else is there to do?  Who would want their dearly beloved pet cat to suffer?  I’d bent down, called out to my Boo-Boo gently, telling him, that it’s all for his own good.

But he’d ignored me, and, hid underneath my bed for an entire day and night.

The morning of the second day, I woke up, saw Boo-Boo lying in front of the windows, getting some sun.  I’d walked over to him, extended my arms, to pat him, but he’d gotten up, dodged me, stubbornly, without turning his head back, limped, his way, back to underneath my bed, and his facial expressions said all: I don’t love you anymore!  This, is where we end.

At this precise moment, I’d heard my own heart shatter, and knew, that I’d lost the trust, that my Boo-Boo cat had for me.  Naturally, he couldn’t understand why it was, that I was taking him to a place he didn’t like to be, to be treated, for no reasons at all, poor Boo-Boo!  He was originally, very close to humans, and loved me so, but, during this time, I’d not only managed, to get him cured, instead, I’d imposed so much more fears upon him.

Then, I shall just, let nature take its course then, not forcing it on him.  Allow the love and the trust to come back again, there’s nothing else MORE imperative than that.

And so, I’d stopped taking Boo-Boo to the veterinary hospital, at first, he’d still act so defensively toward me, looking at me from a distance, with that sense of guardedness in his eyes, always kept a few meters’ distance between us, but, as time passed, he was slowly, willing, to come closer to me, to accept my touch again; and finally, one day, he’d started, circling around me, intimately, and used his head, to rub against my hand, and allowed me to hold him once more, and put up with my never-ending kisses toward him.  And so, we’d become the best of pals, and started living this sweet and happy life we shared again.

After not going to the hospitals every day, other than limping when he walked, Boo-Boo was like his old self, there was no show of him, being in immense pain, and I’d accepted that he will continue to limp too.  Although I felt that he didn’t walk right, but, there’s that extra sense of cuteness about him.  So long as he’s not in pain, nothing else mattered.  That wouldn’t reduce the love I have for him, him being crippled and all.

Then, awhile ago, about the start of the summer, one day, I’d found, that Boo-Boo was no longer limping again, he’d become, once again, a graceful cat again!

How did all of this change?  Could it be, that he was healed, by the love, and the trust we shared once more?

Or maybe, it’s because I’d relaxed too.  When I no longer worried like hell over him, perhaps, this cat who shared my life intimately, also stopped feeling the anxieties.  From before when I’d done so much, and, there was, no results, then one day, the blockage all of a sudden, was relieved, leaving everything up to fate, and, things got resolved, and, the blockage was gone, and, everything changed for the better.

Worrying is actually an useless emotions.  From my Booboo cat, I’d understand once more, that loosening a wind-up too-tightly heart, your world will open up too.  Like the mysticist had stated, “All you need to do is sit quietly, the flowers will bloom on their own, the grasses and trees will too.”  It is that way to a cat, and this can also be applied to anybody else’s life as well.

And so, the cat just needed time on its own, to sort whatever it is it needed to get sorted out, and the owner’s worries are for naught, and, the owner learned an important lesson about life from her cat, that sometimes, all you need to do, is to sit back, and let nature take its course, and, trust that everything will work out at the end, and it will…

Jia-Tong Lee: the Elementary School Education Lacked the Qualities, Harder to Get Caught Up as the Children Get Older

This, is how not-caught-yet the college level English majors are here, from the Newspapers, translated…

The foreign language majors couldn’t even differentiate the be-verbs, the children from the distant regions couldn’t even write out the twenty-six English alphabets… “You must start quality control in education starting in the first grade”.

The education conference that was held yesterday disclosed how the basic knowledge of elementary school level students lacked quality, and that as the children grow older, they’d fallen behind more and more, and it would be, harder, for them to get caught up again; and there were middle school graduates from the distant areas that had flunked on the national English and mathematics exam, with the grade of C.

The honorary professor from Chinghwa University, Lee suggested, that from the first grades, the children MUST have the basics to build up from, and told the instructors that they not give up on any child, because when children get into middle school, it would be difficult, for them, to get caught up again; at the same time, the instructors should teach the students using the different learning styles that fitted them best, devise different materials, to give the different examinations; and that this remedial teaching method should not be just on the tutoring basis, but to make sure that the students have the basic skills levels.

Lee said, that the education forum in Taiwan is quite well, but, there are two major problems, one, the children from distant regions couldn’t pass the fundamental level exams, and even for the students who managed to pass the entrance exams, they may not have the strong basics to build up on, the primary reason for this was because there’s no quality control in the elementary years, and the examinations only has the more difficult questions, and skips all the basics.

And so, from this, you can see, how much problem IS in the reforms in education, and, it’s because of this low level of understanding, because the teachers can’t possibly keep an eye on all 20+kids, and so, naturally, some of those children who have difficulties are bound to be overlooked, and so, children are still getting left behind…