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Fears

How there are, the dangers online that not even God himself can, defend from!  Translated…

Fear is best used, in covering up one’s lacking of skills.  God is online, and, He can only tap on the keys to console.  The innocence, and the world set up many goals———ahhhh, that lost goal, dripped down like the raindrops, only time felt that it’s kind and gentle, and, genuine.  God can only tap the keys as consoles, the longer lines, with the longer ways ahead, getting, lost.  Suddenly, the depth of the dark net, a woman who’d glowed pressed down on a key, then, God is, pulled, by, into, the darkness.

all you need is something like this…

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and you’re, in, “business”…photo from online

So, if even God is drawn in by those, sex solicitors, and, how easy do you think humans CAN fall?  And this still just shows, how dangerous it is, online, you can get that flash of large sets of jugs on top, or in a jiffy, some LOSER flashed himself in front of a webcam, and, you got, NO clue as to hey, how’d that got turn on, and, what am I looking at here!

That, is how easily children, CAN get, exposed to bullshits, because SEX still???  Oh yeah, it still, S-E-L-L-S!!!

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Parents Overcome with Poverty-Stricken Life, Sold Their Young Daughter for $190,000N.T. to the Horny Man They’d Owed the Debts to

Because you can’t PAY up the debts, therefore, you SOLD your daughters, PIMPED them out?  Wow, and you call yourselves, PARENTS???  This is simply just, BULLSHIT, how us females are sold for CASH!  Off of the Front Page Sections, translated…

A couple who couldn’t find steady work, had three young daughters, they were living in poverty, and the family took out a loan of $160,000N.T. from their neighbor, the thirty-six year-old man, He, they couldn’t pay it back, two years ago, they’d, privately SOLD their own youngest who was only six-months old, for $190,000N.T. to He, the Taichung District Attorney’s Office indicted the couple as well as He on human trafficking charges.

The man, He used the excuse of helping to take care of the couple’s eight-year-old eldest, and RAPED her too, the district attorney’s office charged him on rape, and He never showed up in court, and the Taichung District Court had an arrest warrant out on him.

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and, we’re, selling ’em as a “bundle” so whoever buys gets FOUR for the PRICE of O-N-E! You have GOT to be SHITTING me here!!! Photo found online

The D.A. found, that the thirty-six-year-old “Zheng” (a false name), and his wife, the thirty-three year-old “Ping” (false name) had three daughters ages eight, three, and two, and because they were poor, started two years ago, they’d started, taking loans from the unmarried man, He, and left their youngest daughter in his care to babysit.

The couple owed a total of $160,000N.T.s, and they couldn’t pay, plus, He told them he was willing to adopt the couple’s youngest daughter, two years ago during August or September, they’d sold their youngest to He for $190,000N.T.s; He paid them in five installments, six thousand a month, and on March 5th of 2020, he’d, paid up the money for buying the couple’s daughter.

Last year on March 11th, because He couldn’t get the adoption processed, he’d asked his friend, Chang to go to the district office to seek assistance on the adoption process, and the workers notified the police, and that was when the police found, that the couple sold off their daughters to the man, took the contract and the installment payment slips into evidence.  The D.A.’s Office indicted all three yesterday.

And the D.A. also found out, that He used the excuse of how the couple didn’t have enough space at their home, and invited the couple’s eldest daughter to his rental place to sleep, and he’d, molested the child two times, and sexually assaulted her once.

As the child’s mother found hickies on her daughter’s neck, and realized that she’d been raped by the man, she’d, notified the police, and He said that the child wanted to “play the game of vampire sucking blood” that he’d “kissed her neck, that was how the hickies were there.

The district attorneys indicted He on a more severe count of forced sexual act, and some other charges, and He had not shown up in court, and in January, the district court of Taichung sent out an active arrest warrant on him.

And, all three of these adults DESERVED to get PUNISHED severely, the parents, charged with PIMPING their own young out, and the man who “bought” these children, CHARGED with rape, molestation, AND human trafficking, and because “we don’t have enough money”, so we’d, decided, to SELL off our young!  Well, here’s a THOUGHT: if you can’t afford to raise that many kids, then, why the FUCK (don’t pardon me this time!), are you still, popping your offspring out, like how those, RABBITS humped, huh?  If you can’t AFFORD to keep, or to RAISE your young up, then, don’t have them, use CONTRACEPTIVES, you MOTHER FUCKERS!!!  (still no need to PARDON me on this last part here!)

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Naked Girls, L-I-V-E!!!

Like I give a, flying FUCK!!!  Those of you interested in knowing, I got them TITS on top too.

So, why the FUCK (no need to pardon me still!!!), you still, comin’ on to me, huh?  And, you DO realize, that even if I were into that sort of shits, I still, wouldn’t FLASH my “needs” to the “general public”, right?  So, why you ladies, screwing your selves over like that, huh?

And, don’t you got something, better to do, than to, sit in front of that webcam, and wait, for someone, to TURN you on?  This is still, S-H-I-T, if you ask me (but HECK, W-H-O asked you???  EXACTLY!!!

like, this???查看來源圖片photo found online

Naked girls, L-I-V-E!!!  That’s what “we” (don’t ask who “We” are!!!) are, advertising, ‘cuz, we all know this, god damn, FUCKING (like I’d already said???) “market economy” way too well, ‘cuz we (more like me, myself, AND I, collectively!!!) are still, operating on the basic principles of, SUPPLY AND, D-E-M-A-N-D, and it’s just, that even as there are, NO demands, we still, supply, UN-conditionally, UN-endingly…

You have, GOT to be, shitting me here!!!

And, those of you interested in knowing, I’m a WOMAN, even though, I might have, changed my “sex” on my profiles to a D-U-D-E, ‘cuz I’m still, a BIOLOGICAL, W-O-M-A-N here, and no, for the, UMPTEENTH time, I still don’t have the “problem” of, G.I.D. (gender identity disorder anyone???)…

查看來源圖片 and, this, is ALL you’ll, EVER need, to “set up shop”!!!  Photo from online

Naked girls, L-I-V-E!!!  Wouldn’t you like, to come and watch all of us, WHORES, do our, striptease for ya, huh?  And, if you pay extra, we’ll, let you, touch (yeah right, and IN your FREAKIN’ god DAMN, dreams, L-O-S-E-R-S!)_

So, STOP soliciting S-E-X, you BITCHES and WHORES, or ELSE!!!

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The Cases of Sextortion from Online, the Youngest Victim Only Nine

They’re still, getting younger by the years here!  Off of the Front Page Sections, translated…

There is an influx of the sextortion cases of young children for the first half of the year in Hsinbei City, it’s at the peak compared to three years, clearly, these cases are, on the rise, and there were male AND female victims, of the youngest, found in the city of Hsinbei, was only nine, the youngest found in the city of Taipei, eleven.  The summer had begun, the social services department of both Taipei and Hsinbei alerted the parents to tune in to their children’s cell phone usage, their online activities, so they don’t turn into, victims.

The outbreaks kept the children at home, plus, a lot of the children in this country all had cell phones, which was what caused this rise in the number of victims.  The head of the Domestic Violence Prevention Center of Hsinbei City, Hsu called out to the parents, to follow the “Three Don’ts and One Do” rule, “don’t photograph or film”, “Don’t keep the files”, “Don’t Share” those private photos, and to “keep the footages” on file to use as evidence.

Since the implementing of the “Children & Adolescent Sextortion Prevention Laws” were amended in 2017, there’d been a hike in the reports of the sextortion cases online, but the age of the victims, started to decline, and mostly, the video sound files were, leaked out, and to the severe, rapes.

The Department of Sanitation & Welfare and the Hsinbei Domestic Violence Prevention Center estimated, that there were 415 reported case nationwide, forty-eight were from Hsinbei; the 351 reported case in 2018, thirty-nine were from Hsinbei, with most of the cases in the age group of fifteen to eighteen, taking up seventy-four-percent; of the 677 cases nationally last year, there were 139 cases from Hsinbei, with the ages of the victim, dropped to between twelve and fifteen, taking up forty-six percent.  To this May, there were, eighty-seven reported cases in Hsinbei City, of these, two-percent were children under twelves two years ago, and this year, it’d, hiked up to eleven-percent.

There were sixty-one cases two years ago, seventy-five last year, and, just the first half of the year this year, the number reached up to fifty-one cases to date, the youngest victim was only eleven, eighty-percent were females, and the victims were mostly, fourteen-year-olds.  The Social Services pointed out, that with the hike in the cases, the parents and the police are all on high alert, and believed, that it was because of the outbreaks, the kids were kept at home, they’d, gotten more involved with the activities online.

Hsu stated, that the methods of enticing the victims back in 2018 were mostly the online gaming credits, or the “Korean pop music group selections”, and last year, the methods switched to voyeurism, sex-cam, and forced the children and teens to get more shots nude to send to the perpetrators.

Like how two days ago, the model maker, Liu from Taichung used the huge sums of money, had the adolescent female filmed herself masturbating or shoot the photos of herself nude, and he’d, kept the footages, and, threatened the young woman to expose her, forced her to take more nude photos, or make more sex tapes, like the Taiwanese version of “Room N” from Korea awhile ago.

Because all of these teenagers and tweenagers got NOTHING else better to do, they can’t play outside, so, they’d, started, roaming online, and because of how young, how NAÏVE they all are, they’re, all SCREWED, because they were educated enough, of the DANGERS, lurking in the “woods” online!

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The Man Abused His Son, Kept His Wife Locked Up, Hidden His Family, & Lied to the Police

Being with, a man who abused you, and your child too!  From the Front Page Sections, translated…

A woman, Chiu in Chiayi sent a private message via FB to a friend, that she and her one-year-old son were beaten up by her husband, Kuo after he was drunk, the friend passed the message out online to get help.  Two nights ago, the police found the message, and managed to get Chiu and her son out, arrested, Kuo; Kuo admitted to beating his son when he started crying.  The D.A. believed that Kuo had physically assaulted his own young, and obstructed the freedom of his own wife and son, asked the courts to mandate him into custody, on that he may do it again.  The courts mandated the bail to be set at $120,000N.T.s.

The Social Services of Chiayi stated that the social workers went with the mother and son to get their injuries documented, and helped them file for a restraining order, and they’d assessed that the child is safe under the mother’s care, that there’s no need to place him in a foster home, while Chiu had her friends’ assistance, relocated.

The local police on the 27th of this month, found a photo message of a one-year-old young child was suspected of getting slapped, sustained the facial injuries, Chiu, in her private messages told her friend, “He beats me, I can’t take it, older sister, get me out”, “He got angered again after drinking, he beat my child up…”.  The police immediately made the house calls, but they’d not seen Kuo, Chiu, or her son, they’d, used the cell phone GPS to track him down, found Kuo in Tainan, and notified the local authorities to help.

Two nights ago, the police went to Kuo’s residence again, and, Kuo was just entering into the house with Chiu and her son, the police immediately went in after him, Kuo first, stashed Chiu and her son on the second floor, told the police that she wasn’t home; the police called Kuo out on lying, that was when he took the two of them downstairs.

The officers found the child’s face to be, somewhat swollen, and Chiu also told them, that Kuo had confiscated her cell phone, she was, cut off from the outside world, the police immediately, arrested Kuo on obstruction of freedom.  Kuo also admitted to hitting his child for crying out of turn, to not stop crying when he’d told him to.

The local neighbors told, that Kuo is the young boy’s stepfather, before the New Year’s, the family moved back in, to Kuo’s home in Yizhu, that they’d heard, that Kuo would get violent with the son, and they were all shocked, as they saw the photos online, exclaimed, “how can he beat his child like that!”

 And so, this, was how this woman was, lucky enough, to get rescued out, she’d, found a way, to get the message of being trapped in an abusive relationship out to the online media, and, someone saw the message, and helped her, call the cops.

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On an Unknown Early Morning

On an unknown early morning, she woke up, not knowing, what’s up ahead in her day, she got dressed for school, as she’d done from before…

She got out at six thirty, walked on that small road between the fields, like she’d, always done in the mornings, getting to school, then, she can’t remember, what happened afterwards.

She woke, in a room, full of, bright light, with voices, so sharp, so loud it’d, made her ears ache.  She’d, blinked her eyes, tried to get things into focus, but it’s like, something’s, obstructing her view, she’d, rubbed her eyes, to try to clear it, it didn’t work.  It took her, a very long time, to realize, that the white room she was in, wasn’t her class, where she was, supposed to be.

Then, a woman’s voice started speaking, she tried to follow where the sound came from, but, she couldn’t see!!!  The woman’s voices told her, “Ms. You’d been, attacked, we just did a rape kit on you!”  A rape what???   That wasn’t supposed to happen, I was on my way to school, then, for some unknown reasons, I ended up, here…

The woman’s voice continued, “is there someone you’d like us to call for you, an adult, maybe?  Your parents, perhaps?  Do you have their numbers???”

On an unknown early morning, nothing was supposed to happen, it was, just like any other day, she got up, got into the shower, to wake herself up, brushed her teeth, put on her clothes, dressed herself for school, and, sat at the breakfast table, as her mother worked in and out of the kitchen, her father, sitting in his chair, with his paper, reading…

Nothing was supposed to happen, on an, ordinary, unknown, early morning, but something did, something that made her wish she was, dead, but she wasn’t, she’d, survived through the physical and sexual assault, and now, she’s, broken!!!

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The Lies of the Ninth

The memories of trauma, suppressed, because the individual, was way too young, and, something DID happen, maybe, just not the version of the story that this person had told, to her/his, adult counterparts, translated…

There was something that happened when I was younger, that impacted me, something that’s, a part of, my chaotic memories…

At nine, my mother wanted me to test into the GT classes of an all-star elementary school, that’s, farther away from where I used to live, I’d gotten in, and, she’d, transferred me there.

On the first day of school, as I arrived home, I’d told her, that I was, almost, abducted by a bad guy, there was, a woman in a covered up motorcycle helmet that told me she’d brought the lunches for my mother to me.  I’d told my mother: back then, I was playing outside the gates of my school, and the woman asked me to go with her, I’d felt that something wasn’t quite right, because mom wouldn’t do that, and I’d, run scared, back to the school.  But, I wasn’t, acquainted with my new school yet, it took me, a long time, to finally, get back into my class.

As I’d told, I’d, started crying scared.  My mother was shocked, the very next day, she’d, called up the school, as well as the Department of Education to, we’d, almost gotten the case on the press; within a week’s time I was, transferred, back to my former school again.

But actually, this, was a story I’d, made up.

illustration from UDN.com圖/豆寶

There were, two primary motives of me lying: to find a justifiable reason for me heading into school ate, and find a way to go back to my former school, that’s not based off of “I don’t want to go to my new school”.

Two years ago, with my deep-rooted guilt, I’d, told my parents this truth, admitted that I was, lying to them from back when in the family therapist’s office, and I’d, made up the stories, from an illustrated book my parents bought for me, “I Have a Way”, and, the details of what the woman whom I’d told had, tried to take me away, came from the illustration of a person in a helmet, trying, to take a child away in the pages.

Because my story was, fully-thought out, without any flaws, to the point, that my parents, as well as the staff members of the school all thought it was, true, for almost, twenty years.

Do children who read, really behave themselves?  The knowledge I’d gained from reading, taught me how to commit a crime.

And yet, up to recently, I’d felt, chaotic of this memory.

There was a part of me that felt, that might there have been, something that’s, happened to me, even though it may not have been, the version of the stories I’d told?  How else, would I come up with, the specific details, including what the woman sounded like, what she was dressed in, what her scooter looked like…………

The me at nine years old, I’d, watched the scenes, played on in my mind, as I’d, “retold” my mother what had, happened (and if I remembered correctly, the highest scoring section of my G.T. exams was in the “thinking skills in space and images”).  And, I’d, started crying like there was, no tomorrow, to the point I was, trembling hard, if I were lying, then, how come I had, such physiological response?  Could it be, that I’d, fooled myself into believing?  Or, had there actually, been something that’s, too awful, too shocked, for the me at age nine to accept?  So I’d, forgotten, and, altered this memory of mine, to make it, fictitious?

Several years ago, I’d gone to a hypnosis therapy session, to deal with the problem of ‘feeling a ton of pain, but I can’t cry”.  This was, completely opposite to the me at nine, who’d, “made up a story, that’s, false, and cried like it actually, happened.”

And yet, at the physical classes, I’d shown, the “reflexive response outbursts” in crying, as the coach helped me to relax my diaphragm, I’d, started, wailing hard, it was, a sort of cry, from the depth of my body.

The coach told me, that the diaphragm is a place where, “unresolved emotions are, stored”, so, there may be, some sort of, very deep trauma from long ago, that’s still, not yet, entered, into my consciousness, stayed still inside of my body.

I’d instinctively felt, that in the lies I’d told when I was nine, there might have been something, that’s made me stuck, as a twenty-nine year-old, grown up right now.

So, something definitely happened to you, because of the physiological response of your body, and this sort of a response only comes, when the body had, experienced, something that’, extremely, traumatic, so, maybe something HAD, happened to you at age nine, just not as you’d, remembered it, being almost abducted by a stranger, maybe, it was, something else, that’s, more serious, because the body, it, NEVER lies, and it’s, up to this individual, to dig even deeper, if s/he can, to find out exactly, what had, happened to her/him in his childhood years, and resolve what happened to her/him, piece, by piece.  And, until this person resolved everything, s/he will, always, have that thing that’s, blocking her/his path, from reaching her/his, full potential.

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The Railroad that Extended, Through Our, Childhood Years…

The railroad that extended, through our, childhood years, it’d, sped off, west (or was it, east) bound, and, it’d, not slowed down one bit, just kept going, going, going, ‘til it was, completely, G-O-N-E…

The railroad that extended, through our, childhood years, they’d, taken us very far, helped our imaginations soar, didn’t it?  And yet, reality, eventually, dragged us all back down to the ground, and we get, trampled on!

what that, looked, like…查看來源圖片with no end in sight…photo from online

The railroad that extended, through our, childhood years, do you, remember it?  How it runs, on, and on, and on, and on, and on?  How we thought we couldn’t, get to the terminal stations?  Well, we’re, here, the end of the line, where childhood is, completely, gone, and we can’t, EVER, get it back again.

The railroad that extended, through our, childhood years, oh how I wish, it could, keep on going, until eternity comes, but it can’t, it’d, ended already, as I got my, innocence, STOLEN from, under me, back as a young child from before.

And no, it still, was, NEVER my fault!!!

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The Paradise Called Childhood, Lost…

The paradise called childhood, lost, and no matter how hard you’d tried, you will, NEVER get it back again.  The paradise called childhood, lost, for good, and, it’s, never found again, and, even as you’d, backtracked to what went wrong back then, there’s, still NO way of making up, for the loss of time you were supposed to have been, allotted, through childhood.

The paradise called childhood, lost, forever, and, it’s, never found, because, just like how Alice never dug herself back out, of that Rabbit Hole, after her head was, chopped off by the Queen of Hearts???  (I mean, how can you possibly still DIG your way out of a hole, IF you got your heads chopped off, right???  Think about it for a sec…).

like this abandoned Teddy by the side of the road???  Photo from online…

The paradise called childhood, lost, don’t know when I lost you, childhood, but, you’d been gone for so long now, and, even though, it’s, not at all normal, for a child like me, to live without a proper childhood, I had, forced myself to adapt, to growing up without you in my younger years…

The paradise called childhood, lost, and nobody knows how, it was here, just a short while ago, but, it’s not here now, perhaps, it fell through to the depth of that rabbit hole, and, never dug itself out, like Alice???

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The Debris of Childhood

We’re all, impacted by this, because they (whoever they may be???) still don’t call it “growing pains” for nothing, do they?  Nope!

The debris of childhood, we’re all, feeling the impacts of the destructions, at various stages in our lives, and for some, because they refused to acknowledge, that their childhoods are so FUCKED up (and your point being???), that they needed a lie to live in, and so, they’d made up this HUGE wonderful lie, that they actually had amazing parents who loved them.

The debris of childhood, had you been impacted yet, I had, my life was sent, on that CRASH course, and, I was tossed, from that rollercoaster called my own life, but, I’d held on, refused to let go, and that, was how I was able to survive!  The debris of childhood, are you ready, to face it, up front?  Can you, handle the truth, that your parents may be like mine: abusive AND neglectful?  Because NOBODY can choose her/his family of origin, that, is why all families of origin is a SOURCE of pain for all!

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