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The Paradise Called Childhood, Lost…

The paradise called childhood, lost, and no matter how hard you’d tried, you will, NEVER get it back again.  The paradise called childhood, lost, for good, and, it’s, never found again, and, even as you’d, backtracked to what went wrong back then, there’s, still NO way of making up, for the loss of time you were supposed to have been, allotted, through childhood.

The paradise called childhood, lost, forever, and, it’s, never found, because, just like how Alice never dug herself back out, of that Rabbit Hole, after her head was, chopped off by the Queen of Hearts???  (I mean, how can you possibly still DIG your way out of a hole, IF you got your heads chopped off, right???  Think about it for a sec…).

like this abandoned Teddy by the side of the road???  Photo from online…

The paradise called childhood, lost, don’t know when I lost you, childhood, but, you’d been gone for so long now, and, even though, it’s, not at all normal, for a child like me, to live without a proper childhood, I had, forced myself to adapt, to growing up without you in my younger years…

The paradise called childhood, lost, and nobody knows how, it was here, just a short while ago, but, it’s not here now, perhaps, it fell through to the depth of that rabbit hole, and, never dug itself out, like Alice???

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The Debris of Childhood

We’re all, impacted by this, because they (whoever they may be???) still don’t call it “growing pains” for nothing, do they?  Nope!

The debris of childhood, we’re all, feeling the impacts of the destructions, at various stages in our lives, and for some, because they refused to acknowledge, that their childhoods are so FUCKED up (and your point being???), that they needed a lie to live in, and so, they’d made up this HUGE wonderful lie, that they actually had amazing parents who loved them.

The debris of childhood, had you been impacted yet, I had, my life was sent, on that CRASH course, and, I was tossed, from that rollercoaster called my own life, but, I’d held on, refused to let go, and that, was how I was able to survive!  The debris of childhood, are you ready, to face it, up front?  Can you, handle the truth, that your parents may be like mine: abusive AND neglectful?  Because NOBODY can choose her/his family of origin, that, is why all families of origin is a SOURCE of pain for all!

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Hiring Adolescent Girls to Strip Online, Only Pays Them $8000N.T. a Month

Because???  Oh yeah, SEX still SELLS!  From the Front Page Sections, translated…

A man, Chien was suspected of working with an agency and illegally recruited twenty-six young men and women to work as strip reporters, and hold webcam conferences with the clients completely nude, and, the workers got scammed by the layers, and, only managed to get paid just three-percent of what the audiences paid to the company; some of the employees changed their minds about working there, and were threatened to get exposed if they don’t keep on working by the agency, some wanted a name-brand bag, and, had webcam conferences with clients with her top off, and only managed to receive a little over $8,000N.T.s for working a little over a month.

The Detective Department two nights ago, separated into teams, went to Kaohsiung, Yilan, Changhwa, Chiayi, Tainan, and Pingdong, etc., etc., etc., the studios, as well as the members’ residences, arrested Chien and the twelve agents, they’d confiscated the computers, the tactic manual, along with other times, the police booked the individuals based off of laws against sex trade of children, human trafficking,, and other laws; the police said that of the twelve agents, one of them was a transgendered person, and, of the twenty-six underage platform sex news reporters, at least two of them were just teens.

The website runs on memberships, and, there were over four hundred strip reporters, and the one-on-one sessions with the news casts via webcam or by phone sex would cost $2N.T.s a minute, and one sex reporter to multiple audience is $5N.T per minute, and for the top off, completely nude, topless, sexually illicit behaviors, the website would change anywhere from $500N.T. to $1,500N.T.s, the station would earn anywhere from four, to five million dollars N.T. per month, but the agency, and the website took about ninety-seven percent of the total earned, and only three percent would be given to the strip reporters.

And so, IF you have a brain, then, you’d see, that it’s NOT a good deal, after all they’re asking you to go all O-U-T in front of a CROWD, and, what do you get?  Almost NOTHING, compared to how much the agents are getting, and this is still happening because???  Oh yeah, SIMPLE economics: supply AND demand?  Hello, hello, hello?  Sex still SELLS, but the cash goes into the pockets of, NOT those who are topless, and, that, is just what you get, if you’re DUMB enough, to think that it’s EASY money!

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The Assistant to the Coach of a Youth Baseball League Molested Over Ten Members of the Team

And no, I still did NOT make this SHIT up, from the Front Page Sections, translated…

There were cases of sexual molestation that occurred in an elementary school and middle school youth baseball team, the eighteen-year-old assistant coach’s rape on a total of ten victims, the detectives, the social services department, as well as the Department of Education set up a specialty squad to investigate in secrecy, after they’d inquired all the students on the team, yesterday, they’d charged Chen, the assistant coach with obstructions to sexual freedom.

“The assistant coach molested me!”, during the middle of March this year, the primary coach of the team asked the students “do you have any comments or questions?”, one of the students raised up his hands, and others followed, and stated, that they were all, sexually molested too, and that, was when the victim students learned, that they were not, the only one who was victimized, the coach believed that this was serious, he’d immediately notified the authorities, and, as the investigations continued, the D.A. and the Department of Education found, that there were, a total of ten children who fell victim.

The victim students told the D.A., that during January and February of this year, at the dormitories of the team, at the assistant coach’s home, in the hotels, Chen the assistant coach had fellated, had anal sex, and, fondled them.  After the case bust open, Chen wrote out a confession, apologizing to his students and the students’ families.

The D.A. found out, that Chen, the assistant coach, because he was an adult, had sexually molested and raped six students, and, after he came of age, he’d forced his students to have sex with him, seven times, and forcefully sexually molested them three time, sexually harassed them twice, the victims were mostly still in elementary school.  As the D.A. went to conduct a search at Chen’s residence, they’d found there was a collection of kiddie porn in his collection from online, and, on the fifth day upon being notified of Chen’s bad behaviors, the D.A. believed that he was at flight risk, and that he may destroy the evidence, asked the courts to take him into custody, which the courts allowed for.

And so, this is a man with priors, and yet, god knows HOW many young victims had there been already, and this time, someone decided to speak up (finally!), and thus, end this losers rape, sexual molestation on the younger children.

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If You Don’t Break that Wall on the Inside, the Setting Up of the High Fences is Pointless

Written by a school teacher, from the Front Page Sections, translated…

After the schools tore those fences down, the curious eyes from outside on the roads made the students into the main character in The Truman Show; the salespeople no longer needed to pass through the front gates of the schools, to get logged in, they’d gone in and out as they pleased, in the teachers’ office; some of the students had even utilized the break between the classes to sneak out of the schools to get some snacks; a ton of good-for-nothing dropouts or gang members would walk straight in to the schools, to pick a fight with someone; a ton of people who used the excuses of “social movements” would show up at any time of day around the school.  Those eyes from strangers, looking into the schools, made the teachers AND the students feel insecure, and now, they live inside the fences, with that strong lack of security.

Some say, that if a bad person had the intentions of making his way into the schools, no matter how high the fences, it wouldn’t keep the bad person out.  But, this statement was only a half-truth, and yet, it’d exposed the students to dangerous situations.

The idea of the fences is that it’d barred the world outside, providing the students with a simpler environment to learn in, to reduce the risk of criminals entering into the schools.  And this sort of simplified management is especially important for the elementary and middle school levels, and, those PSYCHOS that picked out those kids with no way of fighting back, isn’t it because how they lacked the ability to fight back?  And, because there’s this unevenness, we must offer the middle and elementary schools, more protection.

Tearing down the fences, the strangers can come and go out of the schools as they pleased, and, heaven knows, when the next time the students’ lives would be in danger again.

And so, this person is FOR raising up the fences higher, but, raising up the fences higher still won’t solve the problem in the world, because if there are SO many PSYCHOS out there, and, even IF you’d erected those fences to the height of those SKY-SCRAPERS, there’s still NO guarantees, that those PSYCHOS won’t find their ways in, to hurt the kids.

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Getting Introduced to the Adult World Too Soon…

This, is a story, of innocence, lost!

Getting introduced to the adult world too soon, because I was raised, by IMBECILES!  And, because those IMBICILES couldn’t even KEEP their fucked up marriage together, I was, forced to shoulder UP the responsibilities of doing that FOR them, and, for a very long time, ALL the way, into my 26th, I’d carried this heavy burden upon my shoulders, and, it all became, way, way, WAY back don’t know when, when his FUCKED up DEAD mother (and no, god will NOT rest HER soul!) told me, “you have the responsibilities to keep your parents together”, and, I was only eight or nine, or maybe, just ten, really can’t recall, and I’d lost my innocence.

Getting introduced to the adult world too soon, because you, FUCKING adults got brutally MURDERED by your own fucked up parents, and that, is why, you’d murdered us all, your young, and that, is still how this VICIOUS cycle still keeps on, rolling, rolling, rolling, like the Big O (from S. Silverstein???).

Getting introduced to the adult world too soon, I will NEVER allow that to happen to this DEAD daughter (b/c partially, she IS dead already!  And secondly, I’m a WAY better parent than my own ABUSIVE, ABUSIVE/NEGLECTFUL parents!) of mine, and, hell’s gonna FREEZE and thaw, infinite number of times, before I say my “I do” to that M***ER F***ING (“maxed out”???) piece of TRAILER PARK WHITE TRASH!

Getting introduced to the adult world too soon, because NONE of you parents had figured things out yet, and, we the children, are the one to blame, for ALL of your INCOMPETENCE?  And, by the way, you STUPID adults: NONE of us kids had BEGGED and PLEADED to be BORN to you, our parents, unless, you are MY Emily, but, none of you ARE, are ya?  Hell no!

Okay, the Queen is done, BITCHING, for now, that is…

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A Woman Wanted to Break Up, He’d Forced to Have a Threesome, Raped Her…Indicted

Yeah, call it a BAD breakup if you will, from the Front Page Sections, translated…

A man, Gang was displeased at how his young girlfriend from the high school years moved out of their love nest, was suspected of abetting a roommate, Yeou who had a crush on his girlfriend to take revenge on her, after they’d managed to get the teenage girl out, they’d beaten her up, stripped her, and tortured her, Yeou had backed away, Gang said to him, “Didn’t you dream of fucking my girlfriend for a long time?”, then, they’d had a three-way, and raped her, the D.A. indicted the two men based off of forced sexual acts.

The D.A.’s indictment pointed out, that Gang (age 19) and his roommate, Yeou (age 20) lived together, and, Gang’s girlfriend moved in with them, and was suspected to have disagreements on rent and money, and Yeou also had conflicts with Gang’s underage girlfriend too, the adolescent girl moved out, because she was angered.

Gang was displeased about it, on the noon hour of February 24th, he’d used the excuse of wanting to talk about breaking up with her, when the girlfriend returned to the rental place, he’d taken her cell phone, pulled out her SIM card, so she couldn’t’ call for help, then, Gang got violent toward his young girlfriend, strangled her neck, and beaten her.

Later on, Gang played the sick game of “Fast Answers”, no matter what the girl replied, he’d told her that she answered wrong, forced her to strip, threatened her, “After you’re completely nude, then, it’s SHOW TIME!”, when the victim begged hard without her clothes on, Gang and Yeou still forcibly pulled her into bed, and, acted out scenes from a porn movie with her.

And so, this, is why when you are breaking up, and your ex wanted to see you, it’s always SAFER, to have a friend to go with you, that way, this sort of SHIT won’t happen, and, this still just shows how you LOSERS treat women who don’t want you anymore.

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