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Dreams, Kept Safe, in the, Rabbit Hole

Dreams, kept safe, in the, Rabbit Hole, until, until those, landscapers came, to redo Alice’s parents’, gardens, then, all HELL breaks loose!

The Rabbit Hole was supposed to have been all Alice’s own, her secret hiding place for her dreams, fantasies, her fears too, and yet, one day, her parents decided, to redo the landscape of her garden, and, dug everything up, then, everything was gone, when Alice came home from school that day.

desperately trying to follow her childhood fantasy down the rabbit hole! From online

She’d felt betrayed by her parents, how could they, how could they, just, dig up all her dream in the Rabbit Hole without HER permission?  I mean, yeah, fine, the garden, the home, everything on the land belonged to her parents, sure, but, how could they, prod into, her private little, haven?

Dreams, kept safe in the, Rabbit Hole, she thought, she’d found, a secure and, secret place for all her dreams, her fears, and her hopes, but she’d, miscalculated everything.

That was, the very last time, Alice came back to that garden of her childhood, where she’d fallen asleep, and saw that Rabbit running late…………

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A Secret Portal Back to Her Childhood, Alice Had, Found…

A secret portal back to her childhood, Alice had, found.  She was so happy, and eager to jump right in, because she’d, forgotten all about what’d happened to her as a very young child previously, only remembered the wonderful things, the dreams of, cotton candy cloud, unicorns, what-nots that she’d had from before.

So, she’d, followed that Rabbit that’s, running late (life’s calling, honey!!!), and, slid down that secret portal back to her childhood, and, started adventuring, back to, before.

she’d crawled in…

S**T (b/c children aren’t supposed to cuss???), I’m STUCK! Found online

A secret portal back to her childhood, Alice had found, but, the moment she’d, started, falling down into the abyss (the Rabbit Hole), she’d, regretted it, and, there’s still, NO turning back to her, she got to, see it through, remember what was once there, but, forgotten already!

A secret portal back to her childhood, Alice had found, she’d, ventured, deep, into that hole, and, got her head chopped off by the Queen, and, because she’d died in her dreams, she can’t, wake back up, into, the reality again…

So, guess, she shouldn’t have been, curious, and now she’d learned, that curiosity does NOT just KILL that C-A-T, it’d, killed her too!

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His Face

His face, a monster, that will, NEVER be, erased from my mind…

His face, that’s, haunted me since, and I don’t EVER see him anymore out there, on the streets anymore.

His face, that will, NEVER go away, etched, into my mind, branded onto, my heart, and, no laser surgical removal of this, permanent SCAR will EVER get it off of me.

His face, a face that’s obscene, that just, kept, gawking at me, at us, women, with the, HUGE breasts, with their, long legs in their, super short shorts…

His face, it will, NEVER go away, not for me, for I remembered, EVERYTHING that’s done to me, since I was very young still, and yet, I’d, erased him out of my mind, as a, person.

he used to come, every single night!

photo from online

His face, I no longer took a note of, he no longer, existed, in this, world I live in!  His face, smeared now, and I can’t, even, recall it, but if I focused my mind, I can, make it out, almost, I guess…

His face, the face of the man who’d, raped me, how can I, forget?  He’d, attacked me, every single night when I close my eyes, he’s, the very first thing I see, when I wake in the morn, he’s, everywhere I am, even though, he’d already been, dead (and no, I still did NOT, “murder” him either!), for…how many years had it been again???  Can’t remember, when the last time I saw him, lurking ‘round the corner of that street………

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See My Pains

See my pains!  But, how the, FUCK (so???) can you!

See my pains, you never had, and you never, will, and I’d become, more than, fine with that now.  See my pains, you never did, where the FUCK (so???) were you, when I got, SEXUALLY MOLESTED (and yes, that was, what that was, called, and add the “charges” of Munchausen by Proxy, learned THAT in Abnormal Child Psy, PSYC 4363 WAS, the “course number”!), where the FUCK were you, when I’d, RAPED all those, girl (most of them were in the “population”???) dolls that I had?

See my pains, you never did, and you still, don’t, only, only I’m, no longer, in pain (save for when I have my monthly SHITS here!!!), ‘cuz, I’d, resolved, EVERYTHING already, and, nothing can ever, get to me, again.

See my pains, you never will, and you still, don’t acknowledge my sufferings growing up, but hey, who the FUCK needs your, validations again?  I sure as hell don’t!  See my pains, oh wait, you can’t, and you never will, and I’d, stopped, trying to, make you.

And now, I shall, sit here, on the sidelines (not playing these games no more!!!), and watch, as your worlds, CRASH down and you will end up, BURYING your own, precious children, and when you look sorrowful, helplessly at me, guess what I will say to you?

Oh, yeah, I’m absent, from all of this shit, I’d, checked out!

And there’s, NOTHING you can do, to MAKE me feel a thing about anything again, as in, E-V-E-R and that, is that!

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It Was Me, Who Got Shattered, Like You, Had…

It was me, who got, shattered, like you, had, I just, didn’t know it then, but I know it now…

It was me, who got shattered, like you, had, and, you broke into, millions of bits and pieces, and, scattered your broken self, across my mind.  It was me, who got shattered, like you had, I just, didn’t know it then, I didn’t know, that I was, going to be like you, the victim of our, angers.

what became of, her, my porcelain of, long-ago…photo found online (this wasn’t my identical porcelain though…)

It was me, who got shattered, like you, had, and I know it now, and, I’m so sorry, for how you’d, “died” back when I was too young to even realize.  It was me, who got shattered, like you had, only, I shattered inside, while you’d, shattered, on the, out, and, as soon as you hit the marble floor, I knew, it was, too late, to save you.

Oh how I’d, cried, over you (did I now, can’t remember!), you were prettier than my other, porcelain, and, the thoughts of, had I only, thrown HER, instead of you, you would be, “alive” still, crawled into my mind.

But it was, too late, you’d already, “died”, at my childhood, hand, there was nothing I can do, but to, mourn for my loss of you, and of my own self too……………

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What I Couldn’t, Recall, from Before…

What I couldn’t, recall, from before, it all came, flooding back, into my mind, too fast, I can’t, process them, and the dusts never, settled down fully, nothing was, calm, again!

What I couldn’t, recall, from before, why are they, all hitting me hard now?  Why do I need to, remember, all of these things of pain from my younger years, why can’t my mind, just, keep me, deceived, as it’d done before, huh?

difficulties accessing the memories locked inside the brains! Image from online

What I couldn’t, recall, from before, it’d all, come back out, of the darkness of my, unconscious, passing through the grays of the, subconscious, into, the consciousness that’s me!  What I couldn’t, recall, from before, they’re all coming back, one by one, a fact here, a fact there, several on a day, none on the next, too many to cope on the following day after that.

Until, until, everything that’s happened to me in the past, presented themselves, collectively, to me, inside, that, Pandora’s, box………

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He’d Taken Advantage of the Young Daughter His Friend Asked Him to Help Take Care of, Sentenced to Eight Years

Another RAPE, molestation, of WHATEVER of a young child here, and she was entrusted to someone the parents trusted too, on how this LOSER still just got a slap on the wrist, because the parents settled with him, off of the Front Page Sections, translated…

A male substitute of a certain elementary school in Yunlin was asked by his friend to look after some children, he’d taken photos of the three young girls’ pubic region, and send the photos to the Clouds online, and he’d rubbed up against one of the young girls with his pubic area too, the Criminal Investigations Unit received the Missing Children’s Network in the U.S.’s tip, and caught him.  The Tainan High Subsidiary Courts found, that he’d not cared of the young girl’s psychological development, sentenced him to eight years on counts of children and youth sex extortion, and other charges; this can still be appealed.

The verdict stated, that the thirty-six year old Liu works as a substitute in two of Yunlin’s elementary schools, as a counselor of a preschool too, in December of 2017, a friend of his asked him to pick her seven-year-old daughter up from school, he’d taken the girl back to his place, while the child was napping, he’d taken shots of her pubic area, and uploaded the files to Google Cloud;  two years ago in November and in February of last year, he was asked by another friend to take his six and two year-old children back to his home, and while the young children were playing with toys, he’d taken shots of their pubic regions, then, uploaded it to Cloud, and had twice touched the two-year-old young girl’s pubic area twice.

The American National Association for Missing and Exploited Children found the children’s photos on Cloud, notified the criminal investigations unit here last February, the police searched, and in March, they’d found Liu out, and confiscated the related images, the hard drives he’d used to store the images, after the case had busted open, Liu was suspended from his work, and fired.

The first trial based off of how Liu broke the laws of child and adolescent protections, sentenced him to ten years, he’d appealed, admitted that he took advantage of when the seven-year-old being napping, and took the shots, while he took the shot of the six-year-old, it was a spur of the moment thing, that he’d not done anything against her will, and he’d not rubbed his own penis up against the two-year-old’s pubic area either.

The Tainan High Courts fund that Liu had shot the three young girls’ pubic areas, and rubbed up against the two-year-old’s pubic area, that there’s no need for actual penetration for the charges of rape to stick; as a school instructor, he’d gained the trusts of the parents, and disregarded how his behaviors may impact the young girls’ psychological wellbeing for the sake of his own desires, considering how he’d agreed on the settlement amount with the victimized children’s parents, he was sentenced to only eight years on breaking the laws of child protection, and the obstruction of privacy.

This is still bullshit, just because you’d reached a settlement agreement with the victims’ parents, that still doesn’t mean that you should get off easy, after all, these sex offenders, are known to repeatedly offend again, and I’m sure, that after this bad teacher gets out of his jail terms, he will return back to being a predator, making the world even less safe for the next generations of children.

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The Predatory Instructor Enticed the Adolescent Girls to Pose Nude & Raped Them, Sentenced to a Heavy Twenty-Five Years

Do you, parents, feel safe, with a predator like this, posing as a schoolteacher, in your children’s, schools???  I wouldn’t imagine so!  This is still, an abuser/enabler interaction style that’s presented here, in this case, off of the Front Page Sections, translated…

An office manager of an unnamed cram school in the southern parts, Lee had enticed the middle, high school age girls to pose nude for him, then, threatened every one of them that he’ll send the photos all over, to coerce the victims to have sexual intercourse, there were at least, eleven school age girls who’d been found as victims, the police search found, close to 600 nude photos in the man’s possessions, there were victims who’d told, that they’d been controlled by Lee for five whole years, the courts grilled Lee for using the girls as tools that he could use at any time, sentenced him to a harsh twenty-five years.

Since 2015, Lee had falsified himself as a woman on FB, and randomly found multiple middle and high school age girls, sent the private messages, claimed that he was looking for underwear models, and had the victims take shots on themselves in only their underwear, or nude, that he will pay them, there were, eleven found adolescent female victims, who’d sent anywhere from fifteen to seventy-one nudes to Lee.

There were the teenage girls who’d found Lee’s demands improper, and wanted out, then Lee used a dummy account, and threatened to spread the nude photos of his victims online, to get the adolescents to send him photos every single day, and the victim had, complied, and, from her middle school into her high school years, sent a total of close to six hundred shots or videos, and wired over $110,000N.T. to Lee.

In 2017, Lee met another high school age girl out, claimed that he was looking for model to pose in underwear, but, forcibly took the adolescent girl to a motel, and threatened her, “you have to strip for me, allow me to take your nude photos, then I will pay you”, forced to take her shots nude, and, molested her; the police received multiple calls of adolescent girls, and back in 2020, Lee was finally caught in Kaohsiung.

During the trial, Lee denied the allegations, claimed that he didn’t know that his victims were underage, but had mentioned to them that he was looking for models, that the photos they’d sent him will need to get reviewed first; the victimized adolescent female claimed, that Lee had started connecting with her since her first year of middle school, and threatened to go viral with the nudes she’d sent him, that she’d been under Lee’s control for as long as five whole years to date.

Lee had even threatened the young woman, “I think, I should, go public with your name and personal information then”, the young girl, out of fear, continued to send her nude photos to him, and continued wiring the money to him, the courts found, that the adolescent girl was coerced, and feared what Lee may do, that was why she kept sending him the photos.

The judge considered that Lee is over thirty years of age, and can tell right from wrong, and had used these girls for his own personal sexual pleasures long-term, controlled them, and the victims’ ages ranged from elementary school to high school, and after he was caught, he’d evaded responsibilities, continued damaging these adolescent girls’ lives, forced them to continue producing the sexually-illicit images, molesting them, found him guilty on five charges, gave him a heavy sentence of twenty-five years.

So, are there, victims here?  Or, is this still, an abuser/enabler relationship interaction style?  I mean, these young girls (too dumb, and inexperienced of the world!!!) should’ve told an adult they trusted in their lives, or called the cops, but, because this man preyed on their fears, and all of these, victims (or enablers, whichever you see as fitting calling them!), all allowed him to take advantage of them, that’s why, this LOSER was able to, do this SHIT, for as long as he had, and now, he got twenty-five years behind bars.  But that’s still, nowhere NEAR quite enough, to repair for the damages of these innocent, naïve, school-age girls’, lives, is it?  Nowhere NEAR, close!

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The Forty-Six Year-Old Afterschool Tutor Taught Her Middle School Students How to Have Sex Herself

This is so totally, the, WRONG way, to go about, SEX ed here!!!  The improper behaviors of a school instructor here, a case of, Mrs. Robinson here, off of the Front Page Sections, translated…

Using the Excuses that Pornography Gives the Students the WRONG Idea

Chen works as a female afterschool tutor at a care foundation, three years ago, she put a thirteen-year-old young man to stay at her place, believed, that the young man learned about sex from the pornographies that it’d given him, the wrong ideas, “the pornography has it all wrong!”, and she’d, taught him how herself, had sex with the minor twice; the young man felt guilt, and disclosed it to the volunteers at the foundation last year, the case was busted out into the open.  The Kaohsiung D.A.’s Office indicted Chen on having sexual intercourse with a minor of not yet fourteen.

Chen is forty-nine years old currently, and the foundation tailored itself to help the children in the families that can’t get them the needed help from school, offered the children afterschool help, and on the holidays and weekend, the daycare programs are, provided, offered classes in parenting, family education, and the sex ed for teens in school, life education, and how to prevent the transmissions of A.I.D.S., prevention of domestic violence, and sexual assault.

The police and D.A. investigated, the young man was only thirteen, he was in the baseball team of his school, after school, he’d entered into the tutoring program; in the winter vacation of 2018, he was in the training sessions for baseball at school, he didn’t like the dormitory provisions of the training, asked Chen if he could crash at her place, and after he got the okay from his mother, he’d, moved in to Che’s home.

like Mrs. Robinson from The Graduate???

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One evening, as Chen was having a conversation at home with the adolescent male, the subject drifted to sex, and it became, more and more, sexually illicit, when Chen asked the adolescent male, “had you had sexual intercourse yet?”, the young man told her he hadn’t, Chen asked him, “then, where do you get the knowledge of sex from?”, “from pornography”, replied the youth, Chen told him, “the pornography had it all wrong!”, “if you want to know how to do it, I can, teach it to you.”

And, not long thereafter, the young man went to Chen to “learn”, and, Chen taught him how to have sex, when her own daughter wasn’t at home; a few short day after the “lessons of sex”, the adolescent had sex again, in the bedroom of Chen’s home again.

Afterwards, the young man felt guilt-ridden, believed, that it was wrong that he had had sex with his forty-six year-old female tutor, and last year, he’d, disclosed the matter to a volunteer at the foundation; at first, Chen denied the allegations, claimed that she’d only, massaged him, that she’d helped him stretch out his muscles, by the second interrogation was when she’d, admitted, and, agreed on a settlement with the teen boy’s mother.

Even though, the adolescent male’s mother was willing to forgive Chen, giving her a chance to turn her life around with a probation, but, due to how the young man was only thirteen, the D.A. fund, that Chen’s behaviors are punishable by anywhere from three to ten years in prison, that it’d not qualified for probationary terms, and indicted her with the charges of sexual intercourse with a minor of fourteen years or younger.

And so, this, is how this woman, abused this young man’s trust, and, this still showed, how there are, NO sexual differences to sexual predators, and this is a tutor from a care foundation too, and that young man is, forever, DAMAGED, by this woman he put his trust in, and, his mama actually, forgave the woman for raping her own young!

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He Had Enticed EIGHTY-ONE Adolescent Girls to Pose Nude, Sentenced to 106 Years in Prison

This is still ABUSER/ENABLER, no victims here!  And the PERP here, IS a master student from N.T.U., the MOST prestigious university in ALL of Taiwan too!  Off of the Front Page Sections, translated…

The master program student from N.T.U. Lin used a false photo to entice eighty-one adolescent girls, young girls to take the nude photos of themselves, and sending the photos to him, there were 120G’s worth of files in his possession.  On the first trial, Lin was sentenced to three years on exploitation of children and adolescents, the Highest Court fund him guilty of ninety-two counts, and, sentenced him to 106 years, ten months, the other thirty-four months he received, were payable by fines; the terms of what he is set to serve is pending the investigations of which counts were valid and which ones, not.

The twenty-six year-old Lin was raised by his father, graduated out of a certain technical university, in November of 2016, he’d passed the entrance exams for the master program in N.T.U.’s medical equipment, and imaging graduate department, he was kicked out of the program after 2017, when the case busted into the open, he’d become a skilled worker, made around $22,000N.T. per month.

like this, a predator, hiding behind, a computer screen…

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the “perp”…photo from online

The accusations showed, that started in 2014, through the communications apps, the friendships websites, he’d used the false identities to get the underage adolescent girls to send him their nudes, and as he’d set up the files, he’d set them up by name, age, school, and comments on their bodies, categorized his victims, and, the victims’ ages were from the elementary to the high school years, the youngest was only a second-grader.

The Highest Court found, that because of his own fetish for young children, he’d solicited nude photos of others, that it wasn’t a lapse of his judgment, there’s NO mercy for the courts to consider for him, that his situation isn’t sympathized with, there’s no reduced sentence given for him.  In the futures, there may be the situations of the sentences combined, as the case was finally sorted through in the futures, then, the D.A. of his case by then will ask for the fitting sentence for him from the judge residing over the case.

and now, the, “vic”…

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photo from online

And so here, we still have a PEDOPHILE, who’s with a higher degree, and this still just showed, that pedophile is pedophile is pedophile, no matter how high up on the education ladder you can get, you are, what, you are, and these young ladies, they must be, stupid, not known of the dangers, lurking online, and you would think, that all these cases had already gotten busted out into the wide open, that these younger generations of girls would be, more aware of them, but no, they’re all, way too, fucking (don’t pardon me!) retarded here!

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