Category Archives: Self-Deceptions

Little tricks people use, to deceive themselves, knowingly, OR not…

Never Saw the Underlining Lies

Never saw the underlining lies, because you don’t want to admit to yourselves, that you were tricked, that you were fooled, that you were, STUPID!

Never saw the underlining lies, but, the rest of the world did, as it (the world???) SCREAMED out that warning so loud toward you, and yet, did you hear?  Not at ALL!  You were, too intoxicated, with those sweet lies he’d fed to you, you were, eating OUT of his two hands…

Never saw the underlining lies, and now, you are, paying for that price, a price, that’s, WAY, WAY, WAY above what you CAN afford, but, you’d played the game, and had, lost, BIG times, and, that, would be the end.

Never saw the underlining lies, how?  They were all, UNDERLINED for you, to get your attention, so, how come you still didn’t pay attention to them, huh?  Are you, STUPID?  Or, are you just, S-T-U-P-I-D!!!  Or, perhaps, losing him was too painful, that, you’d rather live in, those sweet lies, than face up, to the COLD, HARD truth of it all???

Never saw the underlining lies, and now, it’s too late, for you to see them, even IF you want to, you won’t be able to, because, they’d become, NONEXISTENT, in this, MADE-UP, fantasy world of yours, so, keep on, living IN your denials, why don’t ya!

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Getting Intoxicated, to Get Over a Lost Love

Drinkin’ the pains away here, are we now???

Getting intoxicated, to get over a lost love, well, it seemed, like a good idea at the time, but, the more I’d drunk, the more I’d think of her, and, after MORE than ten round with José Cuervo, I’m seeing TRIPLE here!

Getting intoxicated, to get over a lost love, it’s the BEST solution, that I can come up with, because since she’d been gone, I’d only have HALF a mind left, couldn’t focus on my work, and so, the boss told me to go HOME, and NOT come back ‘til I’d gotten everything sorted all out…

Getting intoxicated, to get over a lost love, because that, is the only thing I can think of, to get YOU off my mind, and so yeah, I’d headed, to the bars tonight, hoping, that I won’t find you, like those last couple of nights I’d spent at the bar, at the bottom of my drinkin’ glass, and, who knows, maybe, just maybe, I’ll get lucky tonight, and forget ALL about Y-O-U.

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Hard for Me to Believe, Depsite All the Evidence

I don’t know what it’ll take, to convince myself…it’s hard for me to believe, despite all the evidence that’s stacked up against him, he’s my husband, and I support him, more than one-hundred percent, there’s NOT an inkling of doubt about what he told me, I trust me, wholeheartedly.

Hard for me to believe, despite all the evidence, yeah, I know what the evidences point towards, that he’s cheating on me, but I just don’t believe that to be true, because I KNOW, that he is faithful to me (here comes the D-E-N-I-A-L!!!). He’d never cheated on me, and, so, why would I believe the words of someone else?  Plus, he’d tell me if he’s NO longer in love with me anymore that’s for sure.

It’s hard for me to believe, despite ALL the evidence, because I’m blinded by love, and, there’s NO way for me to see the truth, shining through again, until, I get KNOCKED off my feet, and that’s not happenin’, anytime soon, so………

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A Gifted and Talented Student from N.T.U. Became a Horrid Lover

Guess WHAT set this P-S-Y-C-H-O off here???  She wanted to break up with him!!!  From the Front Page Sections, translated…

A horrid lover who claimed he loved her…Stabbed his girlfriend in the open public…desecrated her body in public.

The man, Chang, who graduated from N.T.U. out of the accounting department who works as a CPA was displeased with how his kindergarten teacher girlfriend wanted to break up with him, the police suspected that he took her nude photos without her consent, and threatened to put it into the open, to get her back, but she didn’t want to get back together with him, so, he got angered, yesterday after he’d stabbed his girlfriend to death, and attempted to kill himself, but unsuccessfully, and he’d desecrated her corpse too, and, when the police found the woman, Lin, her neck was almost severed off, the police took Chang into the hospital, after they’d made sure he was okay, they charged him with murder.

The Suspect Chang Works in a Famous Accountant’s Office

The twenty-nine year old Chang is an actuary of the An-Hou Building Construction United Offices of Accountants, last year, from online, he’d met his girlfriend who works as a kindergarten teacher who was seven years his junior, six months ago, they’d started dating, he was loving to her, after June of this year when Lin graduated from an Education University in the middle regions, he’d rented a place for her in Taipei, they’d lived together a lot, and he’d even taken her home to meet his parents. Based off of understanding, last month, Lin wanted to break up, and, they still didn’t have a clean enough break, when they’d gone to Japan together at the start of this month, they got into an argument, Chang slapped her across the face, after they’d had sex together, Chang took out his cell, and forcefully took her nude photos without her consent, and as they’d returned to Taiwan, Lin threatened her, “If you have sex with me just once, I’ll delete the photograph”, Lin discovered how scary the man is, insisted on breaking up with him, but Chang couldn’t accept it at all, made numerous threats to kill her.

Stabbed His Girlfriend’s Neck, Chest and Abdomen a Total of FORTY Times

Yesterday at seven in the morn, as Lin was leaving for work from her rental place, Chang came to her and blocked her path, and, caught her on the way to work close to the Shisong Elementary School, and begged her to take him back, Lin used the excuse of she was in a hurry, and brushed him off, Chang took out a thirty centimeter fruits knife, and stabbed it toward her neck, chest and abdomen a total of over forty times, the woman’s windpipe was severed.  After the woman fell to the ground, he’d continued hacking her up, he’d even taken off her pants, and started licking her, then, put her pants back on, and held tight to her, hollering, “I won’t do it again!”

As the witnesses on the streets called it in, by the time the police got there, Chang had the knife against his own neck, pulled his shirt, slashed his own chest, the patrol officers made the gestures of pulling out their guns to get him to drop the knife, and cuffed him, made an arrest; the paramedics found Lin already dead, and that there were over ten wounds on Chang’s neck, chest, legs and arms, the police escorted him to the hospital, after he was arrested, he kept claiming that Lin belonged to him alone, that he will NEVER allow anybody ELSE to touch her.

“I’d Given Her ALL My Love, I Wanted to Die with Her”

“I really loved her so very much!”, Chang claimed, he’d been through several loves, and he loved this girl the most, but later, she turned cold, would no longer hold his hands or have sex with him, they didn’t argue at all, and he didn’t know what caused their break up, “I’d given her ALL my love, I wanted to die with her!”, toward the nude photos of her, he’d explained that he thought they’d made up on the trip to Japan, as they’d had sex, he’d used attempted to take their nude photos together, and she’d told him no, she’d touched his cell phone, and that, was how the shot was taken.

Chang is currently in the hospital, and ALL his vital signs are fine, the police already took his computer to check if there are nude photos.  As Lin’s mother ran to the police subprecinct, she’d spoken angrily, “It’s so unfair, if you wanted to hurt yourself, why don’t you just do so, you’d killed someone’s daughter, why didn’t you have the guts to kill yourself too?”

Here’s the “follow-up”…

Chang, with a master’s degree from N.T.U., after stabbing his girlfriend to death, he’d desecrated her body, then, acted like he was possessed, started stabbing himself, his crazed behaviors seemed to be psychotic symptoms of some sort, but after the doctors checked him out, they’d found NO history of mental illness, and the D.A. will have him checked out by a psychiatrist.  Police found, that Chang believed that he and his girlfriend had an affinity that started three thousand years ago, insisted on keep going with her, he had a very strong and forceful view toward loving her.

After the stabbing, the police attempted to get in contact with Chang’s mother, but her cell was already turned off, they only managed to get through to his older brother, who came to accompany him at the hospital; the police interviewed the neighbors, and found, that the Changs didn’t have any contact with them, and that they’re curious of the family’s background.

The police and firefighters pointed out, that based off of the traffic cam in Chang’s car, after he’d killed his girlfriend, he’d kneeled down by her body, covered in her blood, stripped her pants and her panties off, then, put his head between her legs, then, used the knife in his right hand, to cut himself; first, he’d slapped his own face with the blade of the knife, then, slashed his own necks, and he’d done that over ten times, and each time, he’d used more force.

Because Chang had a knife and was all worked up, as the paramedics arrived, they couldn’t get near, the two patrol officers rushed to the scene, Chang put the woman’s pants back on, lifted his head back up, continued mutilating himself; the two officers circled around him, approached him carefully, with their hands on their guns, hollered, “Put the knife DOWN!”, he’d let go of the knife, and wiped away the blood and the tears from his face.

Chang was taken to the Army’s General Hospital in Songshan, as they cuffed him, he looked out of it, the blood kept flowing from his neck, he looked in a daze; after they’d managed to stop his bleeding, he was taken to the psych ward, and the psychiatrist believed that he was sound, but there are still more steps needed to confirm this.

Chang claimed, after he’d returned from Japan, he’d accepted the fact they’d broken up, once when his girlfriend got a cold, and agreed that he went to accompany her, it gave him the hopes of getting back together, but she’d become cold toward him in the phones; the messages he’d left on her Facebook got deleted, in the end, she’d even changed her Facebook account information, he couldn’t accept this at all.

He said, about an hour before he’d committed the murder, he’d gone to where his girlfriend lived and waited, he’d wanted to “commit suicide in front of her”, but after they’d met, he couldn’t kill himself at all; because she was hurrying to work, she’d left and ignored him, he got angered by her actions, he’d started hacking her up.

The last post on Chang’s Facebook disclosed how he couldn’t let his love for her go, said that she will NEVER know how much he loved her, “How much affinity we must need, in order to love one another without the regrets?  I think, at least three thousand years, would sound ’bout right!”, the post pointed out, that he’d started fighting for the start, but couldn’t get the ending he desired, and if the heavens will allow, he would be willing to have another three thousand years of making himself better, so they could meet back up again three thousand years from now.

Yeah uh, that, would be the END of that PSYCHO’s statement all right!  This man, because he’d invested (yeah, we’re looking AT it from a “business’s angle” here) too much time, energy AND heart into loving this woman, and, when she didn’t want to reciprocate anymore, because, perhaps, she felt he was too controlling, who knows???  She wanted to sever the ties, and, she’d CUT him off completely, and that angered this kind of personality, and, this, is still NOT a murder out of love, this isn’t even L-O-V-E, because IF you really loved someone, then, you would want the other person to be happy, even IF s/he is NOT with Y-O-U, isn’t that right?  Or, am I on a totally different PLANE of reality compared to ALL of you out there???

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Why Would a Beauty Like Her, Be into a Beast Like You?

The noises are getting to the B-E-A-S-T these days, as soon as Belle had agreed, for her father’s sakes, to living in his castle…

Why would a beauty like her, be into a beast like you, the townsfolk all said, and, whenever the beast got bombarded with the townsfolk’s inquiries, he couldn’t find a reply.

Why would a beauty like her, be into a beast like you?  Because, because DESPITE my ugly looks on the outside, I still got me an amazing heart, and that, was what had made the beauty fall for a beast like me, yeah, just keep on telling yourselves that!

Why would a beauty like her, be into a beast like you?  Well, unless you got something that those AVERAGE LOSERS don’t, otherwise, I can’t think of a reason, why, a beauty like her, would be into a beast like you, so, what IS it that you got, that sets you apart, from the rest of T-H-E-M?

And, because the Beast knew that the Beauty was way too good for her, and so, he’d let her get away, with JUST about any and everything, and, everything she wanted, he’d given to her, and, the Beauty is now, in control, of the B-E-A-S-T, she’s gotten him on a TIGHT leash, don’t you know it!

 

 

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Getting a Hang of the Environment, Getting the Attention of the Child with ADHD Back Again

On dealing with a child with special needs, translated…

It’s been two weeks since school started, did the teachers at school tell you, that your child had become a “space cadet” in class, left her/his seat during lecture, or, getting into conflicts with her/his classmates?  At home, did your child get tired easily, of playing with just one kind of toy and constantly needed to switch around, and took endless hours, to finally complete that homework assignments, or showed a lack of patience too?  All of these behaviors, are called attention-deficit, or hyperactivity.

  • The Three Signs of Children with ADHD:

  1. Difficulties Focusing: for instance, the kid would look around the classroom a lot, stared into space, or, when doing her/his assignments, s/he just couldn’t focus on the tasks.
  2. Hyperactivity: constantly running around, could not sit still to finish one thing, like s/he has never-ending energies.
  3. Has Bad Impulse Control: Constantly disrupts in class by talking incessantly, would often get into someone’s conversations that were ongoing.

Normally, we could intervene, using one of two methods, and to find out exactly, WHY the child has difficulties, focusing, first, through the environment, second, through the child.

On the environmental front, the instructors can discuss with the parents, to see if there are overly stimulating things in the child’s environment, that’s causing her/him to get distracted easily?  Or, maybe, it’s the activities that lacked attraction to the child, couldn’t keep her/his attention at all?  Or, it may be a nutrition deficiency, that’s caused the child to be lack of attention.

As for the child her/himself, many kids who were diagnosed with ADHD also exert the symptoms of lack of balance, falling down easy, and having fine motor difficulties, and using items the wrong ways, such as not holding the scissors correctly, and, these kids may be diagnosed with sensory processing disorder.

SPD means, that when the child’s brain is processing information from the outside world, s/he couldn’t find the right way to act, couldn’t effectively sort through the messages s/he receives from the outside; and, would often show impulsivity, which would easily cause them to fall over, trip, when they’re being taught a new movement.

Through the interventions of an occupational therapist, based off of the child’s conditions, offering the sensory combination, or behaviorist therapy techniques, to allow the child, to interact, under different circumstances, helping the child deal with the stimulations so they can make the right decisions on how to respond, upping the child’s attention, to allow their behaviors to match up to the environments’ requirements.

And, working alongside the doctors and the professional therapist, to find out what, exactly, IS the cause of the child’s lack of attention, and offering the child the needed treatment, and encouraging the parents to get involved in the discussions of the treatment process, to help one know one’s own child better, and to incorporate the treatment processes into the child’s daily living routines, to help the child better adapt to life in school and at home too.

And, this, would be from the PATHOLOGICAL angle, but, from the EDUCATIONAL angle (mine!!!), I still say, that the kid who’s running around like a P-S-Y-C-H-O may be too intelligent for the average kid in her/his class, and, you DO know, that there’s a BETTER way of “describing” kids with ADHD, right?  It’s called Bodily-Kinesthetic, you MORONS!  STOP labeling your children as whatever, and, just sit back, observe them a bit, and, who knows, the answers you’re searching for just might BE right in front of your noses, and you just can’t see it!  Are you FUCKING kidding me, parents???

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Remembered, by the Wars He’d Started

Still just the Q-U-E-E-N (still H-E-R-E too!!!) VOICING her thoughts, her opinions, which “she” is MORE than entitled to H-A-V-E (and yeah, I’m still referring to myself IN the 3rd Person here, and your point is???)…

This, is how his name will go “down” in H-I-S-T-O-R-Y, despite the reforms, and the good things he’d done for his country, he is still remembered, by the wars he’d started.

Remembered, by the wars he’d started, because you don’t hear them talk about people in history in good terms (not usually), you’d only heard the people talk about the bad things that a leader’s done, to mess up the country.

He wanted to leave a name for himself, in his last term, and since he didn’t do NOTHING good worth mentioning, save for RAISING the taxes, which hurt the middle class even M-O-R-E, made false promises, to get him elected or re-elected, he’d decided, to start a WAR overseas, in the “name” of justice, but, it wasn’t for the sake of “justice” at all!

Remembered, by the wars he’d started, because that, is what the constituents are supposed to remember, because the constituents have this way, of BLOCKING everything ELSE out, and focus on the things that IMPACTED their lives directly and the most, and, during HIS term as the leader of the country, he’d started so many wars he couldn’t finish and caused the citizens to suffer, even IF his goal for having the Congress to DECLARE war, is for the purpose of KICK starting this already slowly deteriorating E-C-O-N-O-M-Y…

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Legitimizing Your Adultery

Boys WILL be B-O-Y-S, because???  Oh yeah, we ALLOW them to, walk ALL over US!

Legitimizing your adultery, you got it in your FUCKING puny, little heads, that it is OKAY, for you, to FUCK on a TON of whores, simply because?  Oh yeah, that wife that’s sitting at home, on HER “nest eggs” can NO longer FUCKING give you the S-A-T-I-S-F-A-C-T-I-O-N-S no more. Legitimizing your adultery, because you need to feel less guilty for being unfaithful to your spouses, so, your brains started telling you, that because your wives/husbands (1 @ a time, yet again…), couldn’t satisfy you, therefore, you have the RIGHT, to find your happiness, with a TOTAL disregard of the morality of the matter.

Legitimizing your adultery, because you couldn’t live without your wife or husband, and you couldn’t leave your WHORES/boyfriends behind, and now, you’re DEAD-LOCKED, in this battle of your heart AND your guilty conscience!  You may legitimize your adultery ALL you want, but KNOW this, LOSER, your GUILTY conscience will NEVER let you rest easy, it will keep on gnawing you, NONSTOP, and you will NEVER, EVER, E-V-E-R, sleep well again, because that IS how it will be, getting haunted, by your G-U-I-L-T-Y conscience!

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How to Handle Web’s Cruel Side, by: S. Rosenbloom

From The New York Times that came with today’s papers today…

Anyone who has ever been online has witnessed, or been, virtually hurt by, a mean comment.

“If you’re going to be a blogger, if you’re going to tweet stuff, you better develop a tough skin,” said John Suler, a professor of psychology at Rider University in New Jersey who specializes in what he refers to as cyberpsychology.

Some sixty-nine percent of adult social media users in the United States said they “have seen people being mean and cruel to others on social network sites,” according to a 2011 report from the Pew Research Center’s Internet and American Life Project.

Posts run the gamut from barbs to sadistic antics by trolls who intentionally strive to distress or provoke.  Whether you’re a celebrity author or a mom with a décor blog, you’re fair game. In the virtual world, anonymity and invisibility help us feel uninhibited.  Some people are inspired to behave with greater kindness; others unleash their dark side.  The singular goal of trolls is to elicit pain.  But those comments, while nasty, present an opportunity to learn something about ourselves.

Social scientists say we tend to fixate on the negative.  Correcting that tendency requires understanding that you are ultimately in charge.  “Nobody makes you feel anything,” Professor Suler said.  The key is managing what psychologist refer to as involuntary attention.

Just as our attention naturally gravitates to loud noises, our minds fixate on negative feedback.  Studies like “Bad is Stronger than Good,” published in 2011 in the Review of General Psychology, have shown that we respond more strongly to bad experiences and criticism, and that we remember them more vividly.  “These are things that stick in our brain,” said James O. Pawelski of the University of Pennsylvania.  “If we allow our attention to move involuntarily, that’s where it goes.”

The mind, however, can be tamed.  One way is to ask yourself if those barbs you can’t seen to shrug off have an element of truth.  If the answer is yes, Professor Suler has some advice: let your critics be your gurus.

“You can treat them as an opportunity,” he said.  Ask yourself why you’re ruminating on a comment.  “Why does it bother you?”  Professor Suler said.  “What insecurities are being activated in you?”

Perhaps a negative comment can help you learn something about yourself.

“It’s easy to feel emotionally attacked from these things,” said Bob Pozen, a lecturer at the Harvard Business School.  He said that doesn’t mean that your critics don’t have a point.

But it’s not always possible to learn something from a nasty comment.  Some are baseless; some are crass.  One way to help is to consider the writer’s motivation.

Professor Suler wrote in 2004 in the Journal Cyber Psychology & Behavior about a concept known as “the online disinhibition effect”—the idea that “people say and do things in cyberspace that they wouldn’t ordinarily say or do in the face-to-face world.”  The result can be benign (“unusual acts of kindness and generosity”) or it can be toxic: “rude language, harsh criticisms, anger, hatred, even threats,” Professor Suler said.

The latter is the realm of trolls.  If people keep this concept in mind, he said, “they will see the psychology” of the aggressors, and their comments may be easier to take—and possibly ignore.

Harsh comments can also be made to feel less potent by disputing to yourself what was said.  If, for example, someone writes, “You’re an idiot and no one likes you,” you can marshal evidence against it by reminding yourself of the obvious: You have an education, a good job, many friends.

Also, be mindful when you choose to glance at your blog or social media feeds.  In other words: Stay off Twitter if you just bombed a presentation.

Another way to stop yourself from dwelling negative feedback is to enter into what psychologists refer to as “flow”, a state in which the mind is completely engaged.  Flow can be achieved when playing a piano concerto, practicing karate, being deep in conversation with a friend.  “The toughest time is when the mind is not fully occupied,” said Professor Pawleski, who also prescribed humor as a way to deflect barbs.

Even when a person is alone, humor can be very effective.  Try reading nasty comments aloud in a goofy voice, Professor Pawelski advised, so that when your mind automatically plays back the comment it sounds absurd.

And what if you shared a couple of the good ones with friends instead of sharing the ones that hurt you?  Research shows that it takes more time for positive experiences to become lodged in our long-term memory, so it’s not just pleasurable to dwell on a compliment—it’s shrewd.

“We’re really bad, typically, as a culture about accepting compliments,” Professor Pawelski said.  “They’re meant to be taken in and really appreciated.  They’re meant to be gifts.”

And, this would eventually BE maladaptive because?  Oh yeah, it trains your mind, to DODGE every single BAD experiences in your lives, and, IF you can FACE up to the negativities in your own lives, how can you expect yourselves to be well-adapted, plus, if someone leaves a negative “note” on your weblogs, or Facebook accounts or whatever, just ignore it, and, the article is written for those without a STRONG sense of the self, meaning that those who are affected by the outside world’s opinions of them are still WAY too external (Locus of Control, anyone???), so, take THAT, Professor!  No offense, but this, is how the Q-U-E-E-N (still H-E-R-E!!!) views thing, and yes, everybody IS still entitled to her/his O-P-I-N-I-O-N-S, as this article was written, as someone’s view on the matter, and, we ALL KNOW how we should handle the differences of opinions already, don’t we?  WE R-E-S-P-E-C-T each other even IF we don’t agree with one another!

 

 

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The Spell You Put Me Under

This, is the spell you put me under, after you did your “magic”, I fell, at your feet, and I’m a puppy dog, sick, with love.  The spell you put me under, it’s amazing, and even though I know, that it’s not going to end up well for us both, I can’t help, but want more from you.

The spell you put me under, I couldn’t get out, even IF I wanted to, not that I would want to, after all, your love feels so amazing, each and every time you touched me, I’d get so fucking turned on!  The spell you put me under, I can’t describe it in words, I can only feel, and, it feels, very amazing, even IF the after effect is going to leave me in pain, it’s still MORE than worth it.

The spell you put me under, why?  Because you want someone you can control?  Because you KNEW I wouldn’t fight back?  Is that it?  Well, that was then, and here I am, fighting you, kicking AND screaming, you will have NO more leverage, NO more control over me again!

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