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Visiting New Places with a Young Child

Some free time on our hands, so, let’s, trek the city together, see what we can, find!  On going out with her young daughter, in a new city, trekking, aimlessly, see what they can, encounter on this, adventure, translated…

If you want to know a city, you must, trek it with your feet; even if you’d only, gotten to that tiny corner of the city, you will, hear its, pulses.

That day, my husband was away on business to Taoyuan, my two year-old, who’s a tag-along, a crybaby, and I, followed him out, became his, extra “baggage”.  As we’d arrived, my husband’s gone off on business, and, at a location without the tourist center, naturally, there’s, no routes to follow specified, but Google is all-knowing, turned the two of us into, those two tiny icons that moved on the maps.

In a location of without much management, if you just happened to be pushing a stroller along, it would make the locals notice you.  Sometimes, surprise, “hey, that infant is, smiling AT me!”; sometimes, the pity, “must be hard, carrying all those stuff, and with a baby on her own”, or at least, that’s, what I’d, read into it.  On our way to Tai-Wu New Village, passing through a tiny community, the residences in the alley were too old, with the years quiet, the elderly woman sitting out of her front door suddenly greeted me, “home for a visit”, I’d only, said, “hmmmm!”, as my response, I’m sure, that the elderly couldn’t see me clearly, or, I may, appear like I’m, from here then, then, suddenly, that peace came over my mind.

illustration from UDN.com

From before when I’d gone out, I’d, trekked on slowly, hang out was, just like this too, you can totally, slow your paces down with a young child, because, the child could care LESS about where you take her/him, and will only, keep on, pulling on your hand to see this, to see that, so basically, the supermarkets could be, a tourist attraction too.

And even if it was the drink shop with the signs, the steams, I’d pointed it out to her, to give a new impression of this world.  For instance, we’d stopped at the native museum, as she’d pointed to the statues of people dancing around in circles and called aloud, “Traditional Taiwanese Stage Show!”, I’d told her, “that’s the dances of the native people!”, then she’d, mumbled to herself, “native dances for the native people, native dances of the, natives!”, she’d always, repeated what we’d told her, and, if she couldn’t find the terms in her tiny mind, she’d asked, “What’s this, tell me!”, so very interesting.

I’d tried my best to find the real “tourist attractions” on the map, and finally, we’d, arrived at the riverside park.  Comparing to all the usual parks, all of these sights, are equally, majestic in my daughter’s young mind, she’d started exclaiming, “Wow!”

Like picking up that kaleidoscope, I’d loved using the angle of my daughter’s views to see the world, hanging out with her, getting along with the cute children, with no destination set, the boring things, can become, cute, and interesting.

And so, this is, what we can find, seeing things, through the eyes of a young child, the child holds that curiosity of life, of everything that surrounds her/him, and has one too many questions to ask us, and, it’s our responsibilities, to satisfy that curiosity of the young children’s, best as we, possibly, can.

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Fresh Flowers on His Grave

Fresh flowers on his graves, but, it wasn’t, from her, she’d not “visited” him, she’d been, ill herself!

So, who put those flowers there, huh?  She became, curious.

Fresh flowers on his grave, perhaps, she imagined, those little birdies collected the flowers, made them into a ring, and, dropped it here for him (like in those, Disney Princess stories???)…

like this…

photo from online

Fresh flowers on his grave, she’d started wondering, who else do they know, who’d, do such a thing, and she can’t think of anyone, and, she’d let her imagination get the better of her: maybe, he’d had an affair without my knowledge, and the flowers were from, her?  No, not likely, he’d come home, every night, smelling like the factory, no scent of perfume, she’d recalled.

Fresh flowers on his grave, I’d gone to visit him, to give him the updates of my goings on, and, I’d, kissed my hand, and, put my hand down on his headstone, to pass that kiss to him from my hand.

After placing that fresh bundle of flower, I’d, picked up the old ones, and tell his headstone, I’ll, see you, in two week………

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Fifteen-Percent in the Leaks of Intimate Photos are From Someone You’d Been Intimate With

Knowing this as a FACT, we still can’t, help but share those, photos of intimacy we share with one another, why is that?  Oh yeah, because we’re in, L-O-V-E!!!  Off of the Front Page Sections, translated…

The legislator, Kao’s nude photos by her ex-boyfriend, Lin leaked out, and he’d used that to extort, to threaten her, the T.V. personnel, Hsieh’s X-rated albums leaked, based off of statistics, only thirty-nine percent of the victims with their sexual photos leaking out are willing to call the police, the Department of Welfare & Sanitations protective unit announced the initiation of “Taiwan protective sexual photo defense system”, working along with the Department of Health & Welfare, the social workers will assist the victims to get their sexual photos off the internet.

Chang of the protective agency of the Department of Health & Welfare stated, that the “Private Me Project” was on a trial basis last year, there were up to fifteen victims with their sexual photos leaked out online who sought help from the department, there’d been 109 calls, the photos were posted to as many as 821 sites, with as many as twenty-seven accounts online, the photos were leaked out of.  The analysis found that from January to July this year, the victim population make up were seventy-four percent females, twenty-two percent males, mostly were between ages of nineteen to twenty-five, and, there were elderly victims in the seventies as well.

Sixty-eight percent of the leakage came from unknown, uncertain individuals, fifteen-percent from current or ex lovers, two percent from friends of the victims, or from the self-loaded onto the websites.  Chang stated, the unknowns were mostly from the secret filming after a one-night-stands, there are three major reasons for the under reported numbers of these victims, worry that they may be shunned by the society, that there are no means to seek out help, worried that the sexually-illicit photos can’t get taken off the web.

Chang analyzed, that there are more and more victims of “nude chats”, the online games or the friendship apps are used to gain the trusts of the victims, as the victims started using the webcam to chat, the perps would prod first, and, as the victims are willing to strip in the chat, they would be taped, and, the footages will be used to threaten the victims.

Chang said, do NOT believe that the nude photo of someone you see is real on the other end, as the filters of the cell phone photo programs can be used to edit the photos nowadays, do NOT send photos of yourselves nude to anybody else, including your significant, intimate partners.

There’d been the prevalence of case of leaks in nude photos of late, the Department of Sanitation Welfares pushed forth the “online sexual violence protection program” for the victims, setting up the “Private ME Plan” team, offering the victims to file the complaints, to get the sexual photos off the internet and get deleted, along with the afterwards legal consulting means too.

The “Private Me” work alongside seven locally operated foundations, the social media, Meta, with Meta supplying the “Stop NCII” system, switching the sexually illicit photos to accessible by digital fingerprint, as the searches on similar content had been found on the platform, they would, immediately, pull it off the shelves, the Department of Health Welfare & Sanitations hoped that more online platforms can come onboard, to prevent the spread of the private photos, the sexually illicit footages from leaking all over the internet.

And so, this is the government’s attempts to help stop the nude photos from leaking all over the internet, and, would it work, maybe, but only to a certain extent, because you’re NOT cutting off the sources of the supplies, as this is still the matter of supply and demand, because there’s a demand for these sexual SHIT, there’s always going to be the suppliers, and, who would know, that when we’re lovey-dovey with each other, sharing those kisses, strokes, fucks or whatever, that one day, we may not be together anymore, and, one of us (or both), would use those photos of sexual matters we shared from before, to get back at each other, for the sake of, revenge?  We can’t be sure of that.

So, the BEST way of preventing this sort of SHIT, is, do NOT share your nude photos with anyone, not even your lovers, and, what goes on in the bedrooms, should always stay in the bedrooms, like how I’d told my boys???  Yeah, uh-huh.

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Reduced Me to, Nothing…

This was, what you did, reduced me to, nothing, and I’d, allowed you to!

Reduced me to, nothing, I’m partially to blame I guess, for loving you too much, allowing you to walk all over me, to use me, to abuse me, to cast me aside, because that was, how I’d, built my own, self-worth, self-value on…

Reduced me to, nothing, and it’d felt, awful, being, nothing.  I was, on the receiving end too god damn long, not realized, that I was a human, with all the rights endowed to me from birth on out.

what that, “love” of yours, looked, like…

a deep, dark hole that, consumed me! Image from online

Reduced me to, nothing, I’d, started, building myself back up, from nothing, and, brick by brick, I’d, built this, prison out of, my self.  Reduced me to, nothing, I now realized, that I am, something, something MORE than what you give me credit for, what you’d, built me up to be!

I am, someone, someone that’s, very important, maybe not to anybody else out there, but to my own, self, and that’s, more than enough.

Now, my turn, to REDUCE you, down to, diddily squat, and see how you like being, nothing, to someone like me!

So, how does IT feel, huh?

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The Ninety-Two Year-Old Elderly Woman from Puli Cared for the Children of Lesser Backgrounds

Some good news here, the legacy of love, of giving, passed down by this, elderly woman here!  Off of the Newspapers, translated…

The founder of Children & Adolescents’ Homes Welfare Foundation in Nantou, Chen passed away yesterday, at the age of ninety-two.  Chen had cancer in her midlife years, beaten it with chemo, she was with the illnesses big and small, but, we see her out, with the drip racks, to the events that cared for the lost youths and the less-fortunate, her actions gained her the reputations of “Grandma of Puli”.  The foundation stated, that it will keep on carrying the goodwill of Chen, to pass the legacy of care, of love shown by Chen while she was still alive.

The elderly woman, Chen didn’t have the opportunities to get an education, but had helped a lot of the adolescents who’d followed the wrong paths, and the younger generations from lesser homes, the Ji-Nan University awarded her the honorary doctorate just last year, the elderly stated humbly, “I wasn’t educated, I’m not fitting to receive this.”, the president of Ji-Nan University, Wu told, that grandma had the heart of mercy, and helped the youths who had gone down the wrong paths to steer themselves back onto the right tracks, she’d used her life as a lesson to teach them, she’s an amazing educator.

Back when Chen was young, she’d lost her mother, was sent to the Chens in Puli as an adopted daughter.  After she married, she had seven children, at age thirty-eight, she had been diagnosed with colon cancer, uterine cancer, and other forms of cancer, she’d not gotten defeated by her illnesses, bravely gone through the chemotherapy treatments, and used her own illness as strengths she’d found, to give to the world around her, helping the children from lesser backgrounds to get an education, so they can turn their own lives around.

the elderly woman, at an event hosted by her foundation, photo from UDN.com

With the support of her husband, Lin, she’d sold the land, the house, and helped built a total of thirteen temples including the Liang-Xien Temple, in 1983, the Liang-Xien Temple became the Yu-Liang Xien Tang Social Welfare Organization, then she’d set up the “Chou Chen Home for Youth and Children”, as a place for the children and youths who are from lesser backgrounds.

More than decades ago, there was an adolescent who got placed in the home by the juvenile courts because he got into fights, he was having the troubles adapting to living in the group home, but the elderly woman found that he’d carried his mother’s picture with him, that he’d often sat in the corners, and cried on his own, Chou Chen told him, “You don’t have your mom anymore, but you still have me!”, it’d helped the adolescent loosen his guards, and stopped getting into trouble, the young man even got into university.  He’d returned to the Liang-Xien Foundation to take care of other adolescents.

The Ji-Nan International University awarded the honorary doctorate to Chen last year.  The elderly woman stated, “I’m uneducated, and reason why I received this award, it’s all due to everybody’s giving, I’m only, a representative, hoping that everybody can help out with these children, to get them educated, so they can contribute to this country.”

The foundation told, that the elderly woman had already set up her own final affairs, and her final wishes were that she didn’t want any obituary, that her final affairs should be simple.

And so, this is an amazing woman, who started up her foundation, to help the youths who are on the wrong paths, to steer them onto the right directions, and, it’s with this amazing love she has, that’s touched a ton of younger generations, and even now after she’s gone, her spirits, her will will, keep on, going on, strong.

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I Love You, Oh So Much, Grandpa!

The final moment of love that’s, shared between this dying elderly man and his young grandson, that’s too, unforgettable, translated…Upon reading Lingo’s “I Love You, Grandpa!” on June 22nd, it’d helped me recalled that memory back up to the surfaces.

It was the year that Professor Lu’s eight year battle with his cancer finally ended, he’d taught at the experimental laboratory of N.T.U. Medical Department, shortly after he retired, he was diagnosed with cancer, the oncologist believed his cancer was caused by the exposure of carcinogens at work, that he’d inhaled in too much formaldehyde that’s caused him to have the cancer cells in his lungs.

On that day, the already retired Professor Jing-Mei asked me to go with her to visit a former coworker, Ms. Tsuei-Ying, along with go see her husband, Professor Lu one final time, and of course I’d said yes.

The studies showed, that the sense of hearing is gone last, even as the patients are in a state of comatose, they can still hear some sounds.  The thoughtful Professor Jing-Mei bought a cake of Professor Lu’s favorite Lily Cheesecake, placed it on his chest, told him, we’d brought your favorite snacks.  His eyes trembled a bit, being shut and all.  I’d mentioned of his daughter who is excellent, and recalled everything we’d shared in school teaching together, at the same time, thanking him for sharing with me what he’d caught on his fishing trips, how he’d, given us the various kinds of breads, cakes he’d baked himself.

The foreign hired nurse close by started crying out of sorrows.  At this time, the ward that’s overflown with the tears was disrupted by an energetic young boy, I’d winked at him, he’d made that face at me.  Professor Tsuei-Ying held tightly to her not-yet-preschool-age grandson, told him, “Grandpa is going to become an angel soon!  Tell him you love him in his ears, he can still hear you!”  that young boy slid down out of his grandmother’s lap, got close to his grandpa’s ears, used all of his strengths, declared, “I love you, so very much grandpa!”, that childish voice filled the entire room then, I was moved, and, Professor Lu opened up his eyes wide, then, suddenly, closed them up, passed away with a smile on his lips.

Later, this “I love you so very much grandpa!”, kept surfacing up to my mind repeatedly.

And so, this is on the final passage of life, and, everything that needed to get said got said, and, the man who’d died passed away with ease, and his families felt the loss, but, the loss was also, hand-in-hand with the love they’d shared with this elder of the family.

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Men Who CAN, Warm Me Up…

This is, what I’m, in need of right now, but, but, but…I’m just NOT there (don’t ask “where”!) yet…SHIT!

Men who CAN, warm me up, yes, I’m in need of those right now, because, it’s always, better, to SLEEP with men, to have them, AT my feet, talking in their dreams, so long as they don’t start whining, whimpering, and talk too loud that they’d, affected my sleep, then, we’ll, get along, JUST fine there.

Men who CAN, warm me up, been longing for TWO (so???) brand new, FOUR-LEGGED, larger breed (‘cuz if they are like my past two, then, I’d had to, SQUAT down to their levels, to BITCH them out, which would be, a bit, more inconvenient than I liked…) men, and yet, I still, can’t get them home, ‘cuz, I’m still, NOT quite there (don’t ask “where”!) yet.

someone I can “spoon” with! Photo from online

Men who CAN, warm me up, the criteria for the “position” (not for SEX you MORONS!!!) that I’m, currently, “hiring” for would be, the two MEN (‘cuz I can only deal with two of ‘em at a time???) need to be able to get trained to respond to my commands of, SIT, STAY, good boys, now, go fetch mommy her pink bunnies, drop it, drop it, I say, DROP it, good boys!

Now, who’s UP for that walk, huh???  Come to MAMA!

That, would be the only MEN who will EVER be allowed, on MY god damn, QUEEN-SIZED, or KING-SIZED (???) mattress at night.

And yeah, I know I can count on my two boys, to warm ME up at night, more so than I can count on you, two-legged, LOSERS, so, that position’s been, “filled” there, do NOT send in your applications.

‘Cuz the QUEEN is no longer, holding the “job interviews”…

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The Words of My Friends

How generous, and kind the friends are, in sharing what they have with this individual, warming his heart up…translated…

“The downpour came in a hurry, will you get home all right?”, these lines popped up on LINE, warming my heart up.  As I headed out in the morn, it was sunny out, after two rounds of tennis, the rain came, pouring down hard, I’d hidden underneath the podium for an hour already, and the rain’s still not, letting up yet!

My good friend, Chen the manager, knew I was rushed in going bac to the clinic, opened up, “I have a raincoat in my scooter, you can have it!”, his eyes of concern, it’d, relieved my stress more or less, “nah, you will need it too later on!”  “No big deal, really, I’m already retired, I have nothing to do, I can wait until the rain slowed down a bit then go home.”  He’d insisted, “I love riding my bicycle through the rains, romantic, and out of my, comfort zone, letting the rain wash me clean, having the winds wake up my sleepy moods…………”  seeing how he actually was, getting the raincoat, I’d hopped on my bicycle, and ridden straight home, and, needless to say, I’d, shivered and quivered, all the way, I hopped into the shower immediately as I got home, eaten my breakfast, then, changed into my medical coat, and, as I’d turned on my cell phone, it was Chen, my manager’s concerns, and it’d, warmed me up, although it was still cold and raining nonstop outside.

“I’m usually not at home, and, my place is just, vacant, I’ll give you a set of my keys, you are more than welcome to bring some friends over at anytime, my house is your house too.”  my good friend, Tsai works as a factory manager in Kaohsiung’s Industrial area, early to rise, getting in late with his wife, when he was growing up, he lived in poverty, lived near the seaside village of Yunlin, as he got up in the morn, he had to help his parents with the planting, and was often late to class and got scolded a lot at school.  In his high school years, he had to help out with the household economics, so he’d come up north to Keelung, worked at the shipbuilding factories during the day, and went to night classes, part-timed, worked hard to learn, and worked hard at the ship factory, and he got the notice of the CEO, and, he’d sent him south to manage a factory plant.

To live out his childhood dream—to own a chunk of land, to garden, to plant the vegetables, to keep the fowls, he’d especially bought an acre of farmland with the C.E.O., and, fixed it up to look like a park.  When we had the time, I’d sat with him under his roof to enjoy some teas, the osmanthus planted all around his place, as the breezes came, the place became, scented, and, looking out, there’s nothing but greens, yellows, and reds, so leisurely.  The heaven on earth he’d created step by step, not kept it all to himself, willing to share with me, and, how can I not be moved, when he’d told me he was giving me a set of spare keys?

“The kind words will be heartwarming”, speaking is a form of art, the philosophers told, “dipping some compassion on your tongues, the words will feel breezy when they come out,” my friends’ words of kindness, of sharing to me, it’d, warmed my heart, for many years on end.

So, this is how kind these individuals are to others, with the willingness to share what they owned with other people, bringing some warmth to another’s life.

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Do I, Want, You???

Of course N-O-T, and, what am I, N-U-T-S???

Do I, want, you???

Let’s, DISSECT this, from a, rational, angle first…

I do NOT want you, because, why the FUCK (so???) would I, want to be, involved with (I’m still “with STUPID” here, remember???) a LOSER like you?

Do I, want, you???  Let me ask, does my mind want you???  Waiting for its, response…………this s me, waiting, for my mind, to get back to me…okay, yeah, NO!  Now comes, the soul…, this may take a little longer, as my soul is currently, wandering around and about, and I can’t get it back in, so just, bear with me here………………

Okay then, my “soul” had, “responded”, and that’s, also, a NEGATIVE!

like this???

photo from online

Now my heart, hmmmmmmmm, where’s that thing again???  Oh wait, don[‘t got one, so, that’ll be, an, automatic, NEGATIVE too.

Finally, my god damn, gorgeous, (yes I AM!!!) body…do you want him, body???  Okay, okay, calm yourself down there, “honey!”, yeah, it wants you already, it wants you, DEAD!

So, all four parts of me had, answered to that, million dollar question, and here’s, THE, RECAP:

NO part of me, my body, my mind, my soul, or my, nonexistent heart (‘cuz I’m still, THE Tin Man HERE???), wants you, not even my body, and, ewwwwwwwwwwww, gross!!!

So, there you have it, folks, NO part of me wants you (still not directed toward anybody who CAN read!!!), still just me, talking, to the walls here, ‘k???

Yeah, uh-huh, uh-huh, uh………(my notepad dropping to the floor, ‘cuz I’d, dozed OFF!), hmmmmmmmmmmmmm!

Do pay my secretaries (no need for any more of those, “introductions” here!) on your ways, out.

Thank you for visiting………………yeah, right!

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The Coach of a Gaming Competition and His Girlfriend Made a Death Pact, He’d Survived, the High Courts Changed His Sentence to a Year

Because this is a case of “let’s commit suicide together”, and he’d survived, so he’s not charged with MURDER!!!  Off of the Front Page Sections, translated…

The gaming competition coach, Du seven years ago, made a death pact with his girlfriend at their shared rental home, Wang died, and Du lived; the first trial found Du guilty of assistance suicide, he received a two year eight months sentence, the second trial gave him an added four more years on Du’s “not keeping the promises he’d made with the woman, causing her to die”; the first retrial by the High Courts found, that as Du was taken into the hospital, he suffered from carbon monoxide poisoning, and refused resuscitation, left a final note, which helped his case, yesterday, he was sentenced to a year for helping someone to commit suicide, this can be appealed.

The case lasted seven whole years, on the seventh, the first retrial, the statements argued that Wang’s father blamed himself for telling his daughter to “Study in high school and college, to NOT get involved with a man”, causing her to not tell him what was going on; while Du spoke on behalf of himself, unlike how he’d maintained silence for the past seven years.

Du and Wang started dating and cohabited started in April of 2015, on August 17th of the same year, Wang told that “there’s nothing I have to live for”, started contemplating suicide, although Du didn’t feel he had nothing to live but, but was willing to commit suicide with her, took Wang to buy the sleeping pills, the charcoal; Wang fell into a coma after she took the drugs, died of carbon monoxide poisoning, at around eleven in the late night, Du called his mother, and called the emergency services for help.

Du took twelve pills himself, then started the fire, they embraced and sang the songs, then, fell asleep; at nine in the evening, he woke up vomiting, and his girlfriend was already cold, he’d wanted to “try killing himself again”, that’s why he’d not called the emergency services in the time being.

The Shihlin District Court gave Du a two year eight months sentence on assisting suicide, the High Courts criticized Du for “not keeping up his promise, causing the woman to die”, added more to his sentence, gave him a total of four years.  The High Courts tossed the verdict, passed it back down to retrial.

The judge of the first retrial of the High Courts stated, that as Du was taken into the hospital, he’d shown signs of carbon monoxide poisoning, he’d refused treatment multiple times, and there was a final note left on site, all of these benefitted the defendant, and gave him a year for helping another to commit suicide by conspiracy.

And so, this is how it goes, killing themselves for love, but one survived, and the one who lives is now, charged with a crime, and this man still went along with his girlfriend’s wishes of wanting to commit suicide, instead of telling her she has so much to live for.

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