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The Lies of the Ninth

The memories of trauma, suppressed, because the individual, was way too young, and, something DID happen, maybe, just not the version of the story that this person had told, to her/his, adult counterparts, translated…

There was something that happened when I was younger, that impacted me, something that’s, a part of, my chaotic memories…

At nine, my mother wanted me to test into the GT classes of an all-star elementary school, that’s, farther away from where I used to live, I’d gotten in, and, she’d, transferred me there.

On the first day of school, as I arrived home, I’d told her, that I was, almost, abducted by a bad guy, there was, a woman in a covered up motorcycle helmet that told me she’d brought the lunches for my mother to me.  I’d told my mother: back then, I was playing outside the gates of my school, and the woman asked me to go with her, I’d felt that something wasn’t quite right, because mom wouldn’t do that, and I’d, run scared, back to the school.  But, I wasn’t, acquainted with my new school yet, it took me, a long time, to finally, get back into my class.

As I’d told, I’d, started crying scared.  My mother was shocked, the very next day, she’d, called up the school, as well as the Department of Education to, we’d, almost gotten the case on the press; within a week’s time I was, transferred, back to my former school again.

But actually, this, was a story I’d, made up.

illustration from UDN.com圖/豆寶

There were, two primary motives of me lying: to find a justifiable reason for me heading into school ate, and find a way to go back to my former school, that’s not based off of “I don’t want to go to my new school”.

Two years ago, with my deep-rooted guilt, I’d, told my parents this truth, admitted that I was, lying to them from back when in the family therapist’s office, and I’d, made up the stories, from an illustrated book my parents bought for me, “I Have a Way”, and, the details of what the woman whom I’d told had, tried to take me away, came from the illustration of a person in a helmet, trying, to take a child away in the pages.

Because my story was, fully-thought out, without any flaws, to the point, that my parents, as well as the staff members of the school all thought it was, true, for almost, twenty years.

Do children who read, really behave themselves?  The knowledge I’d gained from reading, taught me how to commit a crime.

And yet, up to recently, I’d felt, chaotic of this memory.

There was a part of me that felt, that might there have been, something that’s, happened to me, even though it may not have been, the version of the stories I’d told?  How else, would I come up with, the specific details, including what the woman sounded like, what she was dressed in, what her scooter looked like…………

The me at nine years old, I’d, watched the scenes, played on in my mind, as I’d, “retold” my mother what had, happened (and if I remembered correctly, the highest scoring section of my G.T. exams was in the “thinking skills in space and images”).  And, I’d, started crying like there was, no tomorrow, to the point I was, trembling hard, if I were lying, then, how come I had, such physiological response?  Could it be, that I’d, fooled myself into believing?  Or, had there actually, been something that’s, too awful, too shocked, for the me at age nine to accept?  So I’d, forgotten, and, altered this memory of mine, to make it, fictitious?

Several years ago, I’d gone to a hypnosis therapy session, to deal with the problem of ‘feeling a ton of pain, but I can’t cry”.  This was, completely opposite to the me at nine, who’d, “made up a story, that’s, false, and cried like it actually, happened.”

And yet, at the physical classes, I’d shown, the “reflexive response outbursts” in crying, as the coach helped me to relax my diaphragm, I’d, started, wailing hard, it was, a sort of cry, from the depth of my body.

The coach told me, that the diaphragm is a place where, “unresolved emotions are, stored”, so, there may be, some sort of, very deep trauma from long ago, that’s still, not yet, entered, into my consciousness, stayed still inside of my body.

I’d instinctively felt, that in the lies I’d told when I was nine, there might have been something, that’s made me stuck, as a twenty-nine year-old, grown up right now.

So, something definitely happened to you, because of the physiological response of your body, and this sort of a response only comes, when the body had, experienced, something that’, extremely, traumatic, so, maybe something HAD, happened to you at age nine, just not as you’d, remembered it, being almost abducted by a stranger, maybe, it was, something else, that’s, more serious, because the body, it, NEVER lies, and it’s, up to this individual, to dig even deeper, if s/he can, to find out exactly, what had, happened to her/him in his childhood years, and resolve what happened to her/him, piece, by piece.  And, until this person resolved everything, s/he will, always, have that thing that’s, blocking her/his path, from reaching her/his, full potential.

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The Railroad that Extended, Through Our, Childhood Years…

The railroad that extended, through our, childhood years, it’d, sped off, west (or was it, east) bound, and, it’d, not slowed down one bit, just kept going, going, going, ‘til it was, completely, G-O-N-E…

The railroad that extended, through our, childhood years, they’d, taken us very far, helped our imaginations soar, didn’t it?  And yet, reality, eventually, dragged us all back down to the ground, and we get, trampled on!

what that, looked, like…查看來源圖片with no end in sight…photo from online

The railroad that extended, through our, childhood years, do you, remember it?  How it runs, on, and on, and on, and on, and on?  How we thought we couldn’t, get to the terminal stations?  Well, we’re, here, the end of the line, where childhood is, completely, gone, and we can’t, EVER, get it back again.

The railroad that extended, through our, childhood years, oh how I wish, it could, keep on going, until eternity comes, but it can’t, it’d, ended already, as I got my, innocence, STOLEN from, under me, back as a young child from before.

And no, it still, was, NEVER my fault!!!

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The Judge Unbuttoned Himself, Asked His Female Assistant for a Massage, the Judiciary Review Recommended that He Gets Taken Off the Bench

Abuse of power, occurring, again, I’m, afraid!  Just because you’re, in a STATUS of power, that does NOT give you the right, to DEMAND these sorts of, sexual favors from your, female subordinates, L-O-S-E-R!!!  Off of the Front Page Sections, translated…

The district court justice of Hsinchu, Wu as he worked in the trial judge of the civil courts locally, he’d not only demanded his assistant handle his private affairs, he’d also, forced the female assistant to massage, to help him with fixing up his achy body, as she’d turned him down, he’d, pressured her, the justice review committee found, that Wu had, abused his power, sexually harassed, that he was, no longer, fitted to reside as a judge, they’d, decided to put him up for a review at the Examination Department, recommended that he gets taken off of his judgeship.

This was, the third case of how a court justice using his status of power, lacking gender equality sense after the cases of the former justice, Chen’s sexually harassing his female assistant, and the former judge, Chen of the Shihlin District Courts commending how his female employee had a perfect cleavage, then, showed off his own pecs to her.  This year in August, Wu was sent for an evaluation of his being fit as a justice of the courts by the Hsinchu District Court Systems, and he was, relieved of his duties as a court justice.

The judiciary review committee stated, that while Wu worked as a trial judge, he’d asked his assistant to take care of his personal affairs on and off hours, including sending his clothes to the cleaners, helping his children find a tutor, planning his family vacations, to find properties, and to go see the properties she’d recommended to him, and because of Wu’s status as a court justice, the assistant was afraid, of losing her job, and so, she’d, done as he’d, asked her to.

From last August to this March, Wu asked his female assistant, to give him a massage on how he wasn’t, feeling well between last August to this March, four times; in the process, he’d, shut the doors and windows, took his clothes off in front of his female assistant, she felt insulted and uncomfortable, later on, she’d started, turning down his requests, but Wu told her, “there are others here”, and demanded that he kept, using the boards to scrape out his internal injuries.

victims no longer silenced 的圖片結果from this…in the shadows…photo from online

Then, the female assistant stopped complying, Wu got angered, and stopped showing her the courtesy on the job for an entire month, he’d, used his status, to pressure her.  What’s more outrageous was, Wu also, asked his coworkers to check off the lists of good looking female employees, and during office hours, he’d, asked them into his office one by one, to inquire them about their relationship statuses.

As the Hsinchu District Court was examining the facts of the case, Wu privately contacted the many women he’d made the requests to, coached them to lie.  The justice evaluation committee believed, that Wu had, broken the boundaries of interacting with his opposite sex coworkers and subordinates, that he was suspected of sexual harassment, and as a justice of the courts, he knew the law, and broken it.

The justice evaluation committee believed, that Wu abused his power, and appointed the court clerk, the justice’s assistants, to run personal errands for him, and he’d not taken into considerations the feelings of his female assistants, after they’d denied his requests of them, he’d, used his status, to pressure them, that as he was questions, he’d, not introspected on what he’d done wrong, instead, he’d, used his status as a judge to pressure those who are questioned, he’d, become, ill-fitted, to serve as a court justices, they’re, recommending his removal from judgeship.

This losers should be, FIRED, than charged, CRIMINALLY for sexual harassments, I mean, just because there are, women who worked for you, that does NOT mean that you get to, treat them like whores, and besides, you’re, a COURT justice, and you should’ve, known better, but, guess you just, can’t, control your DICK, huh?  And you DESERVE to get stripped of your position as a court justice, and, throw in jail for what you put your female subordinates through, and just because we women work for you men, that does NOT mean, that you can, use us, as WHORES!!!

to this…查看來源圖片found online…

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The Air, My Friend

The column by Jimmi Liao, translated…

The Wind Started Blowing, the Hat Flew Off

The Wind Stopped, the Hat, Dropped into the Water

The Wind Got Angry, Why is Everything Blamed on it?

artwork of Jimmi Liao, off of UDN.com幾米

This is scapegoating, because instead of making sure that that hat is, SECURE on your heads, you’d, blamed it on the wind because it’s, much, much easier than, to take responsibilities for what you failed to do in the first place, this happens, quite a lot, if you can believe it!

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Guns Fired Off Outside Texas A&M, Resulting in Two Deaths Ten Injuries

Tragedies that occurred, at a celebratory event, the homecoming party, and there were, fatalities, from the Front Page Sections, translated…

On the evening of the 26th in Texas, a man started shooting at random at a party close to the Texas A&M Commerce campus, causing at least two fatalities, ten injuries, the suspect is still at large.

The school made its public statement early morning on the 27th, that the shooting did NOT occur on campus.  The local police said, that the party seemed to have been hosted by a fraternity to bring in the new school year, they’re currently trying to confirm, fi there were students who were injured or killed, along with the motives of the shooter.

The local news station reporter, Whiteley stated, that this shooting occurred in a local night club, The Party Venue, in the suburbs, outside Glennville, close to Huntsville County, which is quite close to the Texas A&M in Commerce.

and here’s a video from the local news stations, from YouTube

The local sheriff’s department’s deputy chief stated, that there were about 750 people inside the night club, and that the homecoming party may have been hosted by a fraternity of the Texas A&M, but it wasn’t, a registered activity with the schools.

The spokesperson for the school, Johnson stated, “Our hearts go out to the victims of the shooting, we’re, praying for them”, and the statement also said, that Texas A&M is now, working hand in hand with the police locally to investigate the matter, to confirm if the students at A&M had been shot or not.  The police is currently investigating.

The police department of Texas A&M tweeted, that the shooting occurred outside the school, and that there may be students who attend A&M present at the time of the shooting, they’re, looking further into the matter right now.

The Party Venue’s FB page stated, that they only provided the space.  The owner of the night club stated, that the Business Department’s Fraternity had asked to rent out the space, to host a party.  And that something had, happened there.  But gave no more details.

The Dean of the Business Department of Texas A&M tweeted, that this was the weekend before the students were starting school, the local medical center told CNN earlier, that they did, receive the injured, but nobody provided the total number of people who’d been injured, nor the details of how the injuries had, occurred.

This may have been, yet, ANOTHER randomized shooting, and, that’s just it, the shooters, because they wanted to cause injuries, damages on a grander scale, are more than likely, to target these events, where there are, people who are, attending, like this particular, homecoming party, and that’s just it, the world became, more dangerous, because there are always going to be those, ticking time bombs, waiting to explode, and when the individuals were pushed to CRACK, this, is what happens, and it will, keep on happening, partially because gun is so accessible in the U.S.

 

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In Two-and-a-Half Years, He Managed to Abuse Two Young Infants to Death, the Father Was Given a Severe Sentence of Fourteen Years

This is still, an abuser/enabler interaction which led to the imminent deaths of these two young children, from the Front Page Sections, translated…

The couple, Huang were taken into custody for abusing their two-months-old youngest daughter to death, the D.A. followed the leads, and found, that their second born son, was shaken hard by Huang, to death as well, back then, the infant boy wasn’t yet three months of age.  The Chiayi D.A.’s office prosecuted the couple on two counts of manslaughter charges, sentenced Huang to fourteen years, Ting, his wife, was found to have allowed him to abuse their youngest daughter, found guilty of abandonment causing death, and sentenced to seven years two months.

Huang (age 34, currently in custody) and his wife, Ting (age 23) went to court to hear the verdict, as the judge told them of their sentence, and that they could appeal, Ting replied loudly, “okay!”, while Huang only, nodded.  Ting was accompanied out of court by her families, and, at the press conference, the reporters asked her how she felt, she’d not said a word, just left.

The judge found, that when Ting was underage, she married Huang and had their eldest daughter and eldest son, Huang became the sole economic provider of the household; in February of 2017, Huang started shaking their not-yet-three-months-old infant eldest son, and, allowed their son to ram his head into the frames of the bathroom doors, after he was rushed to the hospital, the hospital diagnosed him as multiple organ failure due to abuse, he’d suffered a subdural hematoma, died.

Afterward, Huang moved his family from Taoyuan to Chiayi.  Last October, because of the stresses from life, he’d gotten annoyed at his two-months-old young secondborn daughter’s crying, he’d, beaten the infant girl’s head repeatedly, used the hangers, the blunt objects to abuse her, strangled her neck using a towel, and used the objects that weren’t too sharp, to cut his own young child.

Although Huang’s wife attempted to stop him each and every time from hurting their secondborn daughter, after she’d found her child to not have an appetite after being abused, she’d still spoken on his behalf, that he’d been under a ton of pressure, that he wouldn’t, hurt the children again, and that she couldn’t, take care of her own young if she were to get divorced, that she might want to, leave her own young behind, that was the excuse she used, to justify how she didn’t, take her second-born daughter to the hospital, which caused the child to die in turn.

And, this woman was just making excuse for herself, and her husband, for abusing their children, for NOT taking her own infant child to the hospital to be treated after her husband abused her, and, they’re, BOTH guilty, of murder!

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Before the Restraining Order Was in Effect, the Three-Year-Old Young Child Was Physically Abused by His Father to Seriously Injured

Yeah uh, as this would be, how THESE cases, usually worked, the restraining order ALWAYS came, a little, TOO L-A-T-E!  From the Front Page Sections, translated…

A three-year-old young boy in Taichung, two days ago, because he’d cried too hard, he was, beaten by his own father until his nose bled, his head bruised, and, this suspected case of child abuse was exposed online.  The Miaoli County government’s social services showed concerns, and, they’d found, that the mother of this young boy had filed for a restraining order against her husband for domestic violence, but yesterday, the workers from the Social Services couldn’t get in touch with the child’s mother, and as they’d gone to her mothers, nobody answered, and, the social services is now, in charge of this case.

Based off of understanding, the child’s parents lived in Da-An District in Taichung, they had two children, the father is twenty-three years old, the mother, twenty.  At the start of the year, the woman was suspected of being physically abused by the husband, she’d gone back to her parents’ in Miaoli to live, and she’d filed for a restraining order against him with the courts, the courts had yet to process the case; during this period, the woman had taken her son to return back to her husband’s house, the man works odds and ends jobs, the woman is, unemployed.

from this…See the source imagephoto from online…

Two days ago, the man showed up abruptly at the woman’s family, said he ws taking the young boy to buy toys, he’d driven his wife and son back to Taichung.  But, that afternoon, as the man was napping his son got too loud, he’d beaten his son so hard that the child had nose bleeds and bruising all over his head, as the woman found her son covered up in bruises, she’d, called her father to get them out and away from her husband.

The social services of Miaoli stated, that the case happened in Da-An, Taichung, and after the case of suspected child abuse was out, the social service had, stepped in, at around three in the afternoon yesterday, they’d received the confirmed reports of injuries on the young boy, and there WAS a case of child abuse, they’re now, waiting for the government in Taichung to deal with the paper works of processing, and as the case will be reported, they will handle the matter afterwards.

The Social Services of Miaoli stated, that at the beginning of January, the man was suspected of physically abusing his wife, back then, the domestic violence prevention center in Taichung had intervened.  At the bottom of March, the woman went back to her parents’ in Miaoli to live, the Taichung Domestic Violence Prevention Center had referred the case to the Miaoli unit, the social service department in Miaoli then, reported the case to the police, to help the woman get a restraining order with the courts, the case is set to open in court on May 23rd.

to this…See the source imageanother CONCRETE angel…photo from online

And so, see how god DAMN long this process is?  The case of abuse started before March of this year, because the woman RAN to her parents’ to live at the end of March, and the case will only BE going to TRIAL this month, in a few more weeks, and, what IF, this LOSER breaks the restraining order, and beaten his own wife and child up again, or worse, what if, he’d gone after them, and, MURDERED them both, huh???  I mean, it’s, happened before you know…

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