Hey Pop,It’s been awhile. It’s been 31 years to be exact. In fact it was 31 years ago today when you left us. I’m sorry it’s been a little while since my last letter. Not sure if you can see the news where you are but the world is in a little bit of a tailspin. […]Letters From A Son: A Note To The Old Man — The Written Addiction
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The night withering, away, and there’s, nothing we can do ‘bout it, no matter how much we wanted it to last, it just, can’t and won’t!
The night, withering, away, it just, faded, into black, like those, old memories we once hold so very close to our hearts. The night, withering, away, and, it’s still, tick-tocking, on that countdown of the clock, and it won’t slow down, nor stop, ever.
The night withering, away, how can we, make sure, that these nights last forever, huh? Is there, any way, we can, just live inside, this, freeze frame of our own, imagination, and never age one more day? Because, oh, how I longed, to stay in your arms, forever, and ever, and ever, and ever, and ever………
The nights, withering, away, and there’s, NO stopping this process of time, and, we’d, run short again, as that sunlight, came through those dusted curtains once more, you are, leaving again.
The paradise called childhood, lost, and no matter how hard you’d tried, you will, NEVER get it back again. The paradise called childhood, lost, for good, and, it’s, never found again, and, even as you’d, backtracked to what went wrong back then, there’s, still NO way of making up, for the loss of time you were supposed to have been, allotted, through childhood.
The paradise called childhood, lost, forever, and, it’s, never found, because, just like how Alice never dug herself back out, of that Rabbit Hole, after her head was, chopped off by the Queen of Hearts??? (I mean, how can you possibly still DIG your way out of a hole, IF you got your heads chopped off, right??? Think about it for a sec…).
like this abandoned Teddy by the side of the road??? Photo from online…
The paradise called childhood, lost, don’t know when I lost you, childhood, but, you’d been gone for so long now, and, even though, it’s, not at all normal, for a child like me, to live without a proper childhood, I had, forced myself to adapt, to growing up without you in my younger years…
The paradise called childhood, lost, and nobody knows how, it was here, just a short while ago, but, it’s not here now, perhaps, it fell through to the depth of that rabbit hole, and, never dug itself out, like Alice???
Reality had, started, using DREAMS, as its, PUNCHING B-A-G!!!
And, before we all knew it, these dreams, they’d become, so bruised to, beyond RECOGNITION already…These bruised dreams, what are we supposed to do with them now? They’re, NO longer perfect (compared to in the beginning, when we’d, dreamt them all up, before reality started, KICKING their ASSES???), and, we don’t want, ANY sort of imperfections, appearing, in our dreams, do we? So yeah, we’d, tossed them out, along with the TRASH, on Monday mornings, for the collectors to, pick ‘em all up, and, recycle them.
like this??? Doesn’t, look pretty, does it??? Of course N-O-T, not my photo…
These bruised dreams, maybe, we should, keep them ‘round, who knows, the bruises on them, may eventually, be gone, and they’d all be, good as new again, won’t they? And, tossing them all away, wouldn’t it be risky? After all, it’d taken us, long enough, to finally, start seeing these dreams, slowly, coming true in our lives, and, we shouldn’t just, toss them all away, because of those, itty, bitty, bruises that’s now, startin’, to show, should we???
These bruised dreams, even AS they’d, made their, complete recoveries, they will, NEVER be the same again, because, these dreams will, NEVER get, returned, BACK to the time, before they got, those, blue, green, purplish, bruises, coverin’ up, ALL their, “bodies”………
what reality is doing to dreams, EVERY second of, every day of our lives…illustration from online…
Look how long, a woman can and will hold her grudges, from the Front Page Sections, translated…
A woman, Wang, believed that she was unjustly dumped by her two former boyfriends, several times, in the depth of the nights, she’d broken the windows of their cars, and had committed arson, set their cars on fire, as a way, of taking revenge on them for dumping her; the victims suspected that Wang was responsible for their cars being set ablaze, they’d installed surveillance cameras, and the cameras captured Wang, dressing up as someone else, and setting their cars on fire. The police arrested the mildly emotional and physically handicapped woman, she was very emotional, stressed, “I just felt uneven!”, that, was why she’d committed arson, on her former boyfriends’ cars, the D.A. asked the judge to allow for her incarceration based off of public endangerment, the judge allowed.
The police investigated and found, that Wang had been divorced for several years, a little over a decade ago, started dating a man named Tsai, three years ago after they broke up, she’d met Cheng, last year, she and Cheng broke up too, although, Wang is now, with her third boyfriend, however, she felt that she was abandoned by both of her previous exes, she felt that it was unfair.
This January, in the middle of the nights, Wang was suspected of breaking the windows of Tsai and Cheng’s sedans, and, they’d instinctively believed, that the incidents were related to Wang, but, they’d kept it quiet. Late one night in March, Wang went to the parking lot across from the community where Tsai lived, set his truck on fire, then, went to Tsai’s resident, and, set the sedan and motorcycle that Tsai parked by the side of the road on fire too, the fire almost burned to the residential areas, the firefighters were able to make it to both spots, to prevent further damages.
Later on, Cheng had installed surveillance cameras where he lived, and at around two in the morning on May 12th, he’d captured footage of how Wang rode her motorcycle to Cheng’s residence, she’d even gotten dressed up, with a big sombrero on, wearing rain boots, and, she’d managed, to wrap the headlights on her motorcycle up as well.
Wang broken Cheng’s car window, poured gasoline into the car, then, set the fire, but because the fire wasn’t big enough, she’d gone back, to set it ablaze one more time, and, the third time she’d lit it up, the fire got too out of control, she’d gotten burned herself. Afterwards, Wang went to Tsai’s residence, set a motorcycle and his front doors on fire, the fire got to his living room, gladly, it was put out quickly, before anybody got hurt.
The police found that it was Wang, based off of the surveillance footage, made an arrest yesterday.
Tsai and Cheng refused to talk about their ex further, they’d both stated, “She doesn’t have any money, it’s no use to sue her anyway.”
Because this woman felt unjustly dumped, that, was why she’d taken revenge over her ex-boyfriends, and, maybe, she felt bad about herself, and just, projected her angers onto how the boyfriends had broken up with her, which was what caused her, to commit arson.
You took control, of my heart, and, I still have absolutely NO clue, of how you got to it, and I’d worked, so very god DAMN, FUCKING (and your point being????) hard, to free my heart from you.
Freeing my heart from you, this, was NO easy task, because my heart, it’d longed for you constantly, and endlessly, while my head knew, that you weren’t right for me, and so, my heart and my head became, dead-locked, in this battle, endlessly.
Freeing my heart from you, I will keep on working at it, until, my heart can break out, of that cage that you’d built up, to keep it locked up in, and, until it (my heart???) is free from your control, I will NEVER be able to, rest easy.
Freeing my heart from you, but, I can’t even, imagine my own life without you, how the HELL am I supposed to, free my own heart from loving you? It’ll be hard, I reckon, but, I will do it, a day, at a time, until I’m completely done, with ALL those TWELVE steps.
Freeing my heart from you, I finally hard, and now, it (my heart) never get reminded of the heartaches you’d caused me, as it’d found, another, better, brand NEW man for it to give itself to……
Freeing my heart from you, I had, and, I feel, so free, because I can finally, live, without YOUR abuse, and I’m soaring, free here! It’s amazing, this feeling of F-R-E-E!!!
Never saw the underlining lies, because you don’t want to admit to yourselves, that you were tricked, that you were fooled, that you were, STUPID!
Never saw the underlining lies, but, the rest of the world did, as it (the world???) SCREAMED out that warning so loud toward you, and yet, did you hear? Not at ALL! You were, too intoxicated, with those sweet lies he’d fed to you, you were, eating OUT of his two hands…
Never saw the underlining lies, and now, you are, paying for that price, a price, that’s, WAY, WAY, WAY above what you CAN afford, but, you’d played the game, and had, lost, BIG times, and, that, would be the end.
Never saw the underlining lies, how? They were all, UNDERLINED for you, to get your attention, so, how come you still didn’t pay attention to them, huh? Are you, STUPID? Or, are you just, S-T-U-P-I-D!!! Or, perhaps, losing him was too painful, that, you’d rather live in, those sweet lies, than face up, to the COLD, HARD truth of it all???
Never saw the underlining lies, and now, it’s too late, for you to see them, even IF you want to, you won’t be able to, because, they’d become, NONEXISTENT, in this, MADE-UP, fantasy world of yours, so, keep on, living IN your denials, why don’t ya!