The Room Where, the Memories of My Rape Were Kept, Alive…

It was, inside that old house, in the room, with the, magical bloodied key (like the one in Bluebeard???), where the memories of my rape were, kept, alive…

Since I was raped, by someone I’d, trusted dearly, I’d, started, going inside, this, forbidden room of our old house, and, started, lashing out, painting the walls, the floorboards, with my own, blood.  The room was, covered in, my crimson blood then, and then, the blood, it’d, dried up, I’d felt, a bit better, and I’d, left the room as it was.  Then, I’d, come back into it, and, started, bleeding out all over again, and, left it again, after the blood was, all, bled, out.

And inside that room, something happened, healing, I suppose, with each and every gnash I made on my self, I’d felt, somewhat, better, emotionally/psychologically, don’t know how that could be, ‘cuz, each and every time, I was, drenched, in my own, blood, and yeah, it’d looked, quite, painful!

The room where the memories of my rape were kept, alive, I refused, to throw the key to that particular room away, because, I’d, wanted to keep on, opening up the door again, and again, to those, awful memories that broke me, time, and time again.

Until one day, I’d, lost the key completely, and when I’d realized, that the key to that room of memories of my bloodied past was gone, I flew into a frenzy, started, turning my own house, upside down, trying to, recover the key that got lost, but in the end, to, no avail, until I’d finally, made myself believe, that I won’t, EVER have, the key back again.

a monster in my room…image from online

I’d, left the thought of the key to my bleeding room being gone for god knows how long (I wasn’t actually counting, I’ll have you know that!), then, one day, when I went outside into the yard, to pick some fresh flowers from the garden, to put inside that vase on the breakfast table, there it is, lying, on the patch of green, by the flower garden patches of my, backyard.

Upon discovery of the key, I felt, disbelief, I bent down, ready, to pick it up, but then, something in me made me, hesitated: do I, really, want to, reclaim the memories of rape in that room back again?  How can I, go through, all those moments of my past of getting raped all over again.  But, I’d, needed to, find that final closure to my past, so, despite what my mind advised me (against picking the key up!), I’d, picked it up.

Then, later that evening, I went back, to my old house, and, stuck that key to the rape room, back into its, hole, that final room down the hallway of the second floor, and, for some reasons, the key won’t turn!

And there was, NO way to unlock, the house wasn’t mine no more (and your point being), besides, I’d broken, a dozen laws (i.e. breaking and entering, burglary, ‘cuz I wanted to find those memories of my rape inside that room, and, set it all, ablaze!  Oh, and there’s, that ARSON charge, from me, setting that room full of memories of my rape on fire!).  So I’d, dropped that thought, and, I walked away, and for some unknown reason, something became lighter inside of me, I got, that spring in my step, for the very first time in my life, and I can finally, breathe………………

The Night, Withering, Away

The night withering, away, and there’s, nothing we can do ‘bout it, no matter how much we wanted it to last, it just, can’t and won’t!

The night, withering, away, it just, faded, into black, like those, old memories we once hold so very close to our hearts.  The night, withering, away, and, it’s still, tick-tocking, on that countdown of the clock, and it won’t slow down, nor stop, ever.

the night, fading into day…photo from online

The night withering, away, how can we, make sure, that these nights last forever, huh?  Is there, any way, we can, just live inside, this, freeze frame of our own, imagination, and never age one more day?  Because, oh, how I longed, to stay in your arms, forever, and ever, and ever, and ever, and ever………

The nights, withering, away, and there’s, NO stopping this process of time, and, we’d, run short again, as that sunlight, came through those dusted curtains once more, you are, leaving again.

Is Democracy Totally, on the, Collapse in the World?

Commentaries about how democracy is actually, demoCRAZY here, off of the Front Page Sections, translated…

The top two headlines; from a day ago, all the major newspapers are reporting on how the former president, Lee, “Mr. Democracy” passed; the following day, almost all the major papers are reporting on how the five former and current legislators had, taken the bribes.  Thirty years ago, the former president, Lee in order to let the more experienced representative to take his place, to reform the legislatures, he’d become noted as “Mr. Democracy”.  But, thirty years after the development of this democracy, the key lawmakers of the major parties were found to have taken the bribes from the enterprises, and this showed, how democracy doesn’t mean getting the citizens in directly voting for the president, it’d clearly, shown us, that it’s, too difficult a task, for the politics of democracy to head down the right tracks.

Four years ago, after Trump was elected as president, his methods of ruling the country, using his awful, wayward speeches and behaviors, tearing America apart, it’d made people started doubting democracy.  Taiwan followed closely behind too, these few elected representatives of the people, are a verification of, just that.

Actually, there’s, the corruptive characteristics of democracy.  Democracy is based off of majority ruling.  But, everybody neglected to note: all the major decisions, all involved the assignments of benefits; and, there is, a “cost of the deal” in every single decision.  What is meant by “cost of the deal” is how we needed to, compromise, in order, to reach an agreement; and the more people are involved, the bigger space we’ll need, and, as the number of participants increased to hundreds, thousands, even, millions, it would be next to impossible, to find a place to have all the people gather, let alone, having these participants find a time they’re all, available, and how they’re to, reach, an agreement on everything it’s even, harder still.  And the high price that we’re paying, is, the cost of a democratic, government.

And based off of this, democracy happens, at too high a cost, and yet, people are still pursuing it, blindly, thinking that if they cast a vote, then, their governments are, democratic, without realizing, those lawmakers are, manipulating the masses, by using the ambiguous wordings, to confuse the voters (like this last election I voted in, with the various issues of same-sex marriages, sex ed in the elementary years, etc., etc., etc.), and, this is, a test of the citizens ability to, think critically, but, mostly, when it comes to the votes, we let our emotions lead the way, instead of our heads, and that is precisely why, the world is, headed toward H-E-L-L!!!

 

 

The Adolescent Girl Was Acquainted with a Police Officer on a Case He Was Working on, Asked Him to Borrow Some Money, She Was, Raped by Him

This still, is a CRIME of OPPORTUNITY that’s happened here, an officer, taking ADVANTAGE of this teen’s situation!  Off of the Front Page Sections, translated…

A Police Officer in the Jiali Police Subprecinct’s Substatin, while he worked the case of a single mother’s being scammed online, he’d traded LINE ID with the mother and her twelve-year-old daughter and started contacting them, recently, the single mother was having a hard time finding work, so the adolescent girl asked for help from the officer for a loan to help her and her mother get through the hardships, and he’d taken the advantage of being alone with the teen, and raped her, the Tainan District Attorney’s Office took the officer into custody, and after they’d interrogated him, they charged him with power rape, and had the courts set his bail at $200,000N.T.s.

Based off of understanding, this officer is already married, with two sons, with his quality of work average, and had been listed as an officer to be watched for for discipline; when the local substation investigated the case, he’d denied having sexually assaulted, and told a different story compared to the single mother.

The police stated, that after the officer was out on bail of $200,000N.T., the department held a session of evaluation on his work, they’d believed, that he’d not reported that he was going to visit the adolescent at home to his superiors, nor had he another officer accompanying him, that there were faults in what he’d done, that his actions had, severely, damaged the reputation of the police department, gave him a huge reprimand, and they would reconsider his areas of services, and the police department will wait until the judiciary investigations are finished, then, the police department will find his supervisors, and issue a fitting punishment for every person responsible.

The Jiali Substation on the 22^nd of this month received the calls from the social workers, pointed that an officer in the station is accused of obstruction of sexual freedom, the substation immediately set up a special task force to investigate, and immediately reported this to the Tainan Sexual Assault Prevention Center, and called the District Attorney’s Office of Tainan to work the case.

Two days ago, the district attorneys searched the officer’s residence, and took him into custody, after they’d interrogated him, they set his bail at $200,000N.T.s; the district attorney’s stated, that they will get a closer look at the crimes the officer had, committed, after all the investigations are completed.

Based off of understanding, the officer worked the case of fraud reported by the single mother, and he’d used the case to visit her home, and, had the mother and daughter add his LINE id as their friend, awhile ago, the single mother was having a difficult time finding work, and became suicidal, the adolescent girl believed, that she could count on the officer, and called him for help, hoping that he could, offer them some assistance.

The officer visited the home for a second time, as he’d come, the single mother was not home, and the adolescent girl described how her mother attempted suicide to the officer, hoping that he could let them borrow some money so they can get by, but, the officer was accused by the teen of taking the advantage to rape her.

And because the adolescent girl started behaving oddly at school, as the social workers noted this, they’d, stepped in to investigate, the single mother thought, that the officer who came to their home must’ve, done something to her daughter, and took her daughter to the hospital for a rape kit, and as her sexual assault injuries were confirmed, the mother and daughter decided to sue.

The Penal Code 238 “Rape Using Status” stated, that using status or opportunity to rape, the perpetrator is to receive a sentence of anywhere between six months to five years; if it was sexual molestation, then the sentence would be under three years.

And so, this officer is a BAD example, for what the police should be doing, he took advantage of this young woman’s situation, and raped her, because he thought, that by offering her monetary assistance, she’s indebted to him, and therefore, he can do whatever the @#$% (maxed out!) he wanted to to her, after all, he had, paid, and that’s, just, how off the values are these days right now.

The Cases of Sextortion from Online, the Youngest Victim Only Nine

They’re still, getting younger by the years here!  Off of the Front Page Sections, translated…

There is an influx of the sextortion cases of young children for the first half of the year in Hsinbei City, it’s at the peak compared to three years, clearly, these cases are, on the rise, and there were male AND female victims, of the youngest, found in the city of Hsinbei, was only nine, the youngest found in the city of Taipei, eleven.  The summer had begun, the social services department of both Taipei and Hsinbei alerted the parents to tune in to their children’s cell phone usage, their online activities, so they don’t turn into, victims.

The outbreaks kept the children at home, plus, a lot of the children in this country all had cell phones, which was what caused this rise in the number of victims.  The head of the Domestic Violence Prevention Center of Hsinbei City, Hsu called out to the parents, to follow the “Three Don’ts and One Do” rule, “don’t photograph or film”, “Don’t keep the files”, “Don’t Share” those private photos, and to “keep the footages” on file to use as evidence.

Since the implementing of the “Children & Adolescent Sextortion Prevention Laws” were amended in 2017, there’d been a hike in the reports of the sextortion cases online, but the age of the victims, started to decline, and mostly, the video sound files were, leaked out, and to the severe, rapes.

The Department of Sanitation & Welfare and the Hsinbei Domestic Violence Prevention Center estimated, that there were 415 reported case nationwide, forty-eight were from Hsinbei; the 351 reported case in 2018, thirty-nine were from Hsinbei, with most of the cases in the age group of fifteen to eighteen, taking up seventy-four-percent; of the 677 cases nationally last year, there were 139 cases from Hsinbei, with the ages of the victim, dropped to between twelve and fifteen, taking up forty-six percent.  To this May, there were, eighty-seven reported cases in Hsinbei City, of these, two-percent were children under twelves two years ago, and this year, it’d, hiked up to eleven-percent.

There were sixty-one cases two years ago, seventy-five last year, and, just the first half of the year this year, the number reached up to fifty-one cases to date, the youngest victim was only eleven, eighty-percent were females, and the victims were mostly, fourteen-year-olds.  The Social Services pointed out, that with the hike in the cases, the parents and the police are all on high alert, and believed, that it was because of the outbreaks, the kids were kept at home, they’d, gotten more involved with the activities online.

Hsu stated, that the methods of enticing the victims back in 2018 were mostly the online gaming credits, or the “Korean pop music group selections”, and last year, the methods switched to voyeurism, sex-cam, and forced the children and teens to get more shots nude to send to the perpetrators.

Like how two days ago, the model maker, Liu from Taichung used the huge sums of money, had the adolescent female filmed herself masturbating or shoot the photos of herself nude, and he’d, kept the footages, and, threatened the young woman to expose her, forced her to take more nude photos, or make more sex tapes, like the Taiwanese version of “Room N” from Korea awhile ago.

Because all of these teenagers and tweenagers got NOTHING else better to do, they can’t play outside, so, they’d, started, roaming online, and because of how young, how NAÏVE they all are, they’re, all SCREWED, because they were educated enough, of the DANGERS, lurking in the “woods” online!

Every Time He Came, Crawling Back…

Every time he came, crawling back, against your better sense, you’d, always let him in!  Every time he came, crawling back, he’d, looked for that soft place to land, ‘cuz he’d, bumped into the world too hard, and got, one too many, “boo-boos”!  And, just like a GOOD mama does FOR her BABY boys: you’d, kissed HIM on his “boo-boo”, to make it, all better!

Every time he came, crawling back, you’d, always, opened up the door, soon as you heard his, footsteps approaching, and he didn’t even have to knock first.  Every time he came, crawling back, you’d, opened your arms in warm welcome…

begging for forgiveness here!  Photo from online

Every time he came, crawling back, he knew, just what to bring you, a dozen dozen long-stem red roses (that’s a total of 144!), that box of, sweets (caramels, chocolates, and whatever else there may be???), to apologize for what he’d, done wrong.

Every time he came crawling back, you’d, whispered underneath your breaths: never again!  And yet, the next time he came crawling back, you’ll, let him back in, just the same, wouldn’t you???  Of course you would, as he knew your, soft spot and, he’d, played you, like that fiddle on a string!

And you still don’t have a single clue?  Wow, are you stupid, or are you just, plain, D-U-M-B here, woman!!!

this, is what you need!  illustration from online

What is Taken Away from Your Education?

Lessons we learned, from school, from our own, experiences in life, off of the Front Page Sections, translated…

Recently I’d made the speeches at the schools, as the speech ended, a parent led two children to before me.  “Professor, I was your student, do you still remember me?”  This was every instructor’s nightmare, I’d, worked really hard, to think back on all the students, and just, couldn’t, recall her name; but I’d still smiled and told her, “let me think!”, as she’d heard me say this, her smile did not fade, she’s not, disappointed one bit, but her second-grade daughter looked up at her innocently, “Mom, your teacher can’t remember you!”

I felt very awkward after hearing, before I could reply, she’d immediately told her child, “Do you know how many students the professor’s had?  How can she remember every one, but, so long as I remember her!”, then, she’d, started speaking of her middle school careers, that with the problems she’d, faced in life then, how I’d, given her the advices she’d needed, “because you’d, counseled me, teacher, so I will, never forget you, as I saw the flyer on the seminar, I was so excited to come, to thank you.” as she’d told me, I still, can’t quite, remember her, but, I’d felt, very touched by her words.

The following day, a student used the communication app to contact me, this particular student had been, hurt by a certain teacher, he’d come back to me to tell me about what happened, to seek out my counsel, it took me sometime, but I’d, accompanied him, helped him out; back then, I’d, encouraged him: you need to turn what happened to you, into your driving force, if there’s a chance, you must, help those who’d been hurt like you had.  Back then he’d told me, that he will, work hard, to become a teacher who can, help his students.  In his final year of high school, he wrote me that with his grades, there was, NO chance he will ever be a school teacher, so, he was, willing, to become, a serviceman, to fight to protect the country.

And now, many years afterwards, he’d, shared with me everything he’d weathered through in the armed services, and he’d, mentioned what happened to him again back in middle school, and stressed to me, that even though he wasn’t, highly ranked, he will use his past as a teacher, to NEVER make the mistakes his middle school instructor had made.

After I’d read, although I’d felt glad, but, I couldn’t help but feel: that the first woman told me, “so long as I remember you!”.  It symbolized, I don’t’ need your affirmations from your memories, but I will remember, that was, the demands that one made of, one’s own, characters, to never forget to be, thankful.  While the second student, couldn’t forget about the shame, but he’d not, selected, to take revenge, instead, he’d, turned his shame into something he could, learn from, to remind himself, to NEVER shame another like he’d been, shamed.  Think on his, how many people we will meet, how many things we can, encounter, in our, lifetimes!

Who remembered us, it isn’t, that important, what’s important is who we remembered?  Well, it’s, not that important either, the important being WHY we remember who or what we remember?  Those that happened, those whom we remembered, what were their, influenced on us?  From these two students, I saw the choices of attitude, how they’d, chosen to make themselves feel happy, how by choosing to forgive, it’d, given him peace, to use the past as a mirror to reflect, to have a life without regrets, what, will you, choose?

And so, this, is something worth pondering on, what, do you remember when you graduated?  I’m sure, that it’s not the course load, the books, the materials, or even what you’d made on your exams, it’s the experience of learning, of accumulating the knowledge, of the lessons that life teaches us that we will, carry with us from here on out.

The Married Disciplinary Official at a Technical High School Openly Proclaimed His Love for a Female Student, It’d Cost Him $400,000N.T.

Because he’s the adult, and she, his, student!  With, absolutely, NO sense of no right and wrong, cheating, carrying, that high C-O-S-T!!!  Off of the Front Page Sections, translated…

A former disciplinary official of a technical high school disregarded that he was already married, had an affair with a female student in the school, and, posted on FB their status, “Going Steady Right Now”, with the photos of them puckering up to kiss, and stated, “it’s odd this connection we’d come to share, so grateful for you in my life, I love you”; He’s wife sued in the civil courts for the damages to her marriage, the Kaohsiung District Courts found He and the female student to pay a total of $400,000N.T. to the man’s wife.

Based off of understanding, two years ago, He opened up his relationship status with the female student, “Going Steady”, boldly stated that he loves her, and even posted the photos of the two of them traveling to Japan together, and said, “I want to take you on trips, I love you”; the female student posted her replies back to him on FB, “we shall go on that honeymoon trip next year”, “This trip was more than worth it because of you”, the two of them posted the photos of them, intimate together.

He’s wife found out about his affair, accused him of having an affair, that he was, open about his affair with the female student, it’d, caused her to be under turmoil emotionally, and psychologically, that her right as his spouse was, clearly, impacted, she’d sued for half a million dollars N.T. for the emotional distress.

Toward his own wife’s accusations, He covered the female student repeatedly, said that the young girl was only starting to experience what love is, that she’d not known about the breaching of the right of another’s spouse, claimed, “She too, is a victim!”, that she shouldn’t be sued for his cheating on his own wife; the judge believed, that back then, the female student must’ve already known about the rights of a man and woman in a marriage, that she needed to shoulder up partial of the responsibilities.

He then accused of his own wife of nickeling and diming the expenses, that she’d, controlled the money in the house, “our relationship was based solely off of money”, that she’d refused to sleep in the same bed, causing their love to grow thin.

The courts believed, that He and his wife were married for over twenty years, that even if his wife was stingy, it’s, not odd from a family’s angle; while He could spend a ton of money, taking the female student to Japan to travel, he has, more than enough money, but he’d, become stingy when it came to his wife’s household, and children’s, expenses.  “This is unreasonable”.

The verdict pointed out, that from the contents on FB, the way the student and teacher related to one another, was too intimate, surpassing what was normal between normal school instructor and student, to the point of resembling that of a married couple, that it’d, severely, damaged the right of He’s wife; the judge had grilled He, being a school instructor, he’d, used the innocence the teen has toward love, to have an extramarital affair with the student, with absolutely, NO sense of remorse, found that they student and teacher needed to pay a total of $400,000N.T.

Based off of understanding, He had let his post at the school two years ago, and shortly afterwards, the female student dropped out, on reasons of medical leave.

And so, clearly, this man had, used this young woman’s crush on him, and took advantage of her, although, she’s not, entirely, faultless, nor blameless, because it still takes TWO to T-A-N-G-O, and he got sued by his own wife, and what’s worse was he was so open in proclaiming to the rest of the outside world, that he was in love with the student, totally, disregarding the feelings, the RIGHT of his wife, and he deserved to get S-U-E-D, and this young woman is too innocent, too stupid, and that she was, equally to blame for breaking up this man’s family.

Staying TRUE, to, a WHORING M-A-N

I still gotta say, this is, still NOT directed toward anyone who can R-E-A-D, as for those of you who’d, stumbled onto this site of mine, and can’t READ, well, you got NO business being here, so, get the HELL out!!!

What AM I???  A @#$%ING (maxed out!) R-E-T-A-R-D???

And, why on God’s “green earth” (oh wait, god does NOT have sole-proprietorship over ANY of us, here on E-A-R-T-H!) would I do something so stupid like that, huh?  Besides, you were the ones who couldn’t keep your god damn, @#$%ING (maxed out!) DICKS in check, so, what RIGHT have you, to tell me that I’m not keeping my you-know-where intact?

The primary reason W-H-Y a lot of women are currently STUCK in this, predicament (you can call it that if you want to!) is because they are, too dumb, and too, BLONDE (the dumb-blonde BIMBOS???), to unable to see, how staying STUCK, should be, their, last resort, and they still, don’t get themselves out, why is that, is absolutely, beyond ME!

Staying true, to, a WHORING M-A-N, that may be our, only option, IF we live in the, 18^th, 19^th, 20^th centuries, but we are, in the 21^st CENTURY here (hello, hello, hello, is this thing~~the P.A, even on???), because we are, without a viable skill, to make a living on our own, therefore, in the olden days, we relied on our losers has-beens, to keep us, and seeing how they are all, the bread winners of the house, they can, WHORE around all the want to but that’s, back then, and this, is N-O-W!

Staying true, to, a WHORING M-A-N, is something I will NEVER do, in fact, like all you losers out there that EXTRA “appendage” “down there”, I too, prefer, VIRGIN males too, okay, and yes, I will have my two “virgin males” NEUTERED, and I am going to get the two of them both, HOUSEBROKEN, and, they will be, “camping” their butts, on my bed, next to me, giving that they don’t crawl onto my pillow, to find that soft spot (like Murphy’d done???)…and we’ll all get along, just fine, and dandy here…

On an Unknown Early Morning

On an unknown early morning, she woke up, not knowing, what’s up ahead in her day, she got dressed for school, as she’d done from before…

She got out at six thirty, walked on that small road between the fields, like she’d, always done in the mornings, getting to school, then, she can’t remember, what happened afterwards.

She woke, in a room, full of, bright light, with voices, so sharp, so loud it’d, made her ears ache.  She’d, blinked her eyes, tried to get things into focus, but it’s like, something’s, obstructing her view, she’d, rubbed her eyes, to try to clear it, it didn’t work.  It took her, a very long time, to realize, that the white room she was in, wasn’t her class, where she was, supposed to be.

Then, a woman’s voice started speaking, she tried to follow where the sound came from, but, she couldn’t see!!!  The woman’s voices told her, “Ms. You’d been, attacked, we just did a rape kit on you!”  A rape what???   That wasn’t supposed to happen, I was on my way to school, then, for some unknown reasons, I ended up, here…

The woman’s voice continued, “is there someone you’d like us to call for you, an adult, maybe?  Your parents, perhaps?  Do you have their numbers???”

On an unknown early morning, nothing was supposed to happen, it was, just like any other day, she got up, got into the shower, to wake herself up, brushed her teeth, put on her clothes, dressed herself for school, and, sat at the breakfast table, as her mother worked in and out of the kitchen, her father, sitting in his chair, with his paper, reading…

Nothing was supposed to happen, on an, ordinary, unknown, early morning, but something did, something that made her wish she was, dead, but she wasn’t, she’d, survived through the physical and sexual assault, and now, she’s, broken!!!