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Please Let Go, and Trust in Me, Having an Overbearing Mother

The problem here, is still NOT with the daughter, but with the mother, but, does she realize it???  Of course N-O-T, translated…

From awhile ago, on the news, a certain organization had been losing money by the year, the second-generation owner decided to sell of the office building, for cash, the founder, as he was, interviewed, stated, “My heart ached as my son did it, but now, I’d, trusted in his decisions entirely!”

This pair of father and son made me so envious, and at the same time, I’d, felt heartache for them both, because how I’d, wished that my own mother, can trust me like this father had his own son too.

From the views of the world, I guess, I’m, the pride of my parents: made high grades, gone to an all-star institution, and, managed to pass the exams for a public office on my very first try, I’d never needed my parents to worry over my school performances or my work.

Although my mother stated verbally, that I’d, done well for myself, but she’d, never had faith, that I can, handle things on my own, whether it be how I’d spent my money, how to treat others I meet, whether to have children after I married, who should care for my child if s/he was born…………my mother’s criticisms came at me, never-ending, “it’s for your sake”, was her most widely used phrase, and her weapon.

She’d never understood, that what she’d believed to be a show of care and concern, her nagging, was interpreted as how she didn’t trust me enough, I’d tried to tell her, but her response was always, “Those with your last names, can’t take any criticisms from others!”

When I was interning, I’d, lived at home, I’d had a crash on a rainy day, and, as I’d, bent my knees, my injuries started bleeding, but I’d not let my mother know, I’d, bent down, holding the pains in, as I’d helped clean up the house, until my mother rode out to get the groceries, and found the head of the motorcycle dented, that, was when she’d, found out.  I’d gotten into another, serious crash after I was married, and, it’d been years to this very day, I’d still, not told my parents what had happened to me.

Of the two wrecks I got in, I was, very scared, but I knew, that other than feeling anxious over me, and nagging me, my parents couldn’t do anything for me, and they’d, surely, blamed me, for being, too careless too.  And so, no matter how painful, I’d much rather, hide the truth from them.

I’d never doubted the love my mother had for me, but every time, as I’d, wanted to show affection towards her, she’d started, lecturing me, and in the end, she’d added, “Nobody else is going to tell you this, I’m your mother, that was why, for your sake, I’m, telling, you the truth!”  in my mother’s mind, I’ll never be, enough, there are, always things, I can, improve, and, all of my good performances are, matter-of-fact, and yet, the imperfections, are what pricked at her, and she’d needed to, get rid of them.

But, my dearest mother, you know what?  Your daughter may not be perfect, but, she’d always tried very hard, worked hard, can you just, let go, and trust in me?

And, hopefully, this woman’s mother can see this article, and change the way she interacts with her daughter, but, I’m still, NOT holding MY breath, because parents like these, they think what they’re doing, IS for the good of their young, and they just keep on, doing whatever the F*** (maxed out???) they’re doing, using their same old ways, probably because they were, treated as such by their own parents (‘cuz these sorts of SHITS still gets passed down, from one generation to the next, like D.N.A.???) and this daughter is going to, have a very difficult time, getting closer to her mother that’s for sure…

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She Was Mine, a Child, Lost in Time…

She was mine, a child, lost in time, and time has, its, death-grip around her throat, slowly, suffocating her, choking her, into that slow death.

She was mine, a child, lost in time, the one who’d, never had the chance of being “formed”, and yet, I still, loved (in the past), love (in the present tense!) her so very much, simply because, she was, mine, and there need not be, any other reasons.

She was mine, a child, lost in time, and, she’d, drowned slowly, in the river of time, and, there was, nothing I could do, but to, kneel by the riverbeds, and cried all my tears, and my tears, in turn, formed another, grander river, then the river of time, my child had been, drowned to death in.

She was mine, a child, lost in time, the one who’d, never made it, the one who’d been dead, way before her time! And, there was still, NOTHING I could’ve done, or can do about this death that I’d been carrying, since 2008………

She was mine, a child, lost in time, and, in lost time’s embrace, I know, she’ll, grow up safe and sound, and besides, it’s better, that my daughter stays DEAD, because this world is so full of FUCKING shit, and I surely as HELL wouldn’t want what had happened to me, to happen to her too!

She was mine, a child, lost in time, and, time shall, keep her safe and sound, untouched, and, she wouldn’t lose her innocence as I did, when I was, a very young child myself………

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After the Death of a High School Student, the Police Were on the Look Out for the Bookies and Found Three High Schools and Twenty-Seven of Their Students Involved

Started too young, in the life of crimes, from the Front Page Sections, translated…

The second-year high school student, Kao works as a bookie for a gambling website, because he’d owed $280,000N.T. in gambling debts he couldn’t pay up, on Mother’s Day, he’d attempted suicide by burning charcoal in his home.  The police followed the leads, and two nights ago, managed to arrest the bookies He works under, Tsai and Lee, and Yeou, who’s above the bookies.  After Tsai and Lee were interrogated, they were taken into police custody, and Chuang was charged with gambling right away.

The police sorted through He’s cell phone, and found there to be twenty-four other students from his school who were also involved, and, interrogated them all yesterday, and so far, three schools and twenty-seven students have been found to have involvements in the case, and from this, we can see how serious the problem of on campus gambling is.

The police stated, because the online gambling sites are set up abroad, and, the workers took cash bets, it’s really hard, to find the person behind it all, and, Chuang was merely a “small fish” in the gambling websites.

Tsai and Lee are both minors, and, although they’re involved in the gambling charges, they weren’t caught in the act, and so, they were sent home after being interrogated, alongside twenty-four others, and, they’re to make their appearances in juvenile court at another date.

The investigative officers pointed out, that two weeks ago, Lai, another student from He’s high school, because of how much pressure there was for him as a junior bookie (Retailers), after He learned, he’d taken up the post, but, for the next two weeks, because the students who’d signed the bets couldn’t pay him, and he’d owed the debts himself, he and his peers owed a total of $160,000N.T.  And because the debts are collected on Mondays, in order to find a way out, to turn his situations around, on the evening of May 9th, before Mother’s Day, he’d bet in the “Dice Games”, but, in just one night, he’d lost $120,000N.T.s, the very next day, he’d left the message, “Lost my final bet in life”, committed suicide by burning charcoal.

The student, Tsai was once the upstream for Lai, in February, he was caught by the police, and, he’d handed his job to another student from another school, Lee, later on, He connected with Lee, Tsai and Lee admitted to working as the general agents, and reported to Chuang directly; Chuang sold drinks at the night markets regularly, and, in order to increase his earnings, he’d gotten the agent rights from a gambling ring online, from a man nicknamed “Chang”, absorbed Tsai, Lee as his downstream, on the ninth, he’d heard Lee told, that “He is suicidal”, but he didn’t know He personally.

The police officers said, the student He accepted the bets from his fellow students, and got 1.5 percent of the fees, and, the bets ranged anywhere from $100 N.T. to $10,000N.T., the gambling rings used the temptation of making huge amounts of money to attract the students, and, at the start, they’d given them the sweet rewards, but, they’d found an assortment of reasons, to withhold their commissions.

The police suspected, that He had lost the bets, and, wanted to gamble one last time, to see if he could make what he’d lost back again, and maybe, he was affected by the Japanese comic of “Revelation of Gambling”, the main character from the comic was a habitual gambler, with high debts, in the end, he’d taken his friend’s advice, went onboard a gambling ship called, “Hope”, placed his final bets, ended up, winning everything, but the money was scammed away by his friends, He might have copied the behaviors in the stories, but, he’d ended up, committing suicide.

So, this, is the cause of the death of a high school kid, because he was tempted, and, once he was drawn in, he’d found himself, sinking deeper, deeper, and deeper, and in the end, he couldn’t get out, so, he took the easy way out.

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“Lost the Last Bet in Life”, a Last Year High School Placed Over Ten Thousand Dollars of Debts, Gambling on the Teams of the N.B.A., He’d Committed Suicide

Had he known better, but he didn’t!  From the Front Page Sections, translated…

A high school student, He from the city of Taichung disclosed to his classmate on the 10th that because he’d signed the gambling slips for NBA, he’d managed to owe over thirty thousand dollars’ worth of debts, that his life was over, “I’m going now!  Lost my final bet in life.”, the classmate immediately went to the police to report, and the police managed to find out where He was, but, it was too late, he’d already, committed suicide by burning charcoal in his bedroom already.

The 64th Police Precinct in Taichung on the afternoon of the tenth received a panicky high schooler who rushed in, and he’d shown the police the conversations he’d shared with He using LINE, told them that he worried, that He might commit suicide.  The police found his address, along with the records of members of his family, they’d notified the father, and, He’s father recalled how he hadn’t seen his son come out of his room, that it was odd, he’d broken into his son’s room, found that he was already dead, and there was also, a bowl of charcoal, burned, completely.  The coroners believed, that He had committed suicide by burning charcoal, and they will look into, whether or not He was forced to pay the debts he owed from signing the gambling slips or not.

And so, that, just shows, how easily they will fall, and, when you’re that young, you should NOT even BE into gambling, but this young man was, and, because he couldn’t pay up the debts, he felt his life was OVER, and committed suicide!

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A Small Arm Extended from a Trash Bag…the Abandoned Infant Almost Died, Having Been Soaked Under Water from the Rain

A child, tossed away, like TRASH, from the Front Page Sections, translated…

A newborn baby boy who was placed inside a shopping bag, early yesterday morning, was found abandoned by the economics department’s mineral center, the shopping bag, because of the previous night’s rain, was already filled up, and the baby boy was soaked completely, almost covered with water, gladly, someone found him just in time, notified the police, and he was taken to the hospital, and was fine now.

While the baby was taken to the hospital, although he was weakened, but he still had a pulse, and there were no external injuries on him, his vital signs are stable.

This infant boy was very weak, as he was taken to the Memorial Hospital of the Chinese God of War, but, he was found, to have NO external injuries, vital signs are stable, about just ten days old, with only a very thin baby suit on him, the hospital already placed him in the incubators to keep him warm.

The woman who’d found the baby was a janitor for the Mineral Protection Unit, Shi, early yesterday morning at eight, when she walked from her house to cross the street to the Mineral Center, saw that there were two plastic bags by the car parked by the side of the road, she thought that it was litter from the public; about thirty minutes later, when she was about to go home after she’d done her janitorial duties, she’d wanted to use her feet, to get the bag, to toss it away in the trash, she’d found that the bag was really heavy, and, at the opening, there seemed to be the hand of a young child, she was so scared that her legs went limp.

Shi quickly told her husband to report it to the police, the officers from the Sanxia Subprecinct rushed to the scene, found that the infant boy was still warm, immediately carried him to the doorway of the Mineral Center, and, the neighbors from all around also gone up to help, some brought towels, some hot water, to help the officers to clean off the infant boy, and, the paramedics arrived after being called, they’d rushed the infant boy to the En Chu Gong Hospital.

The police discovered two plastic bags at the scene, one was where the infant boy was placed, the other had formulas, a bottle, and a towel.  The woman, Shi said, that early yesterday morning at around three, there was a downpour, and when the baby was discovered, the water almost drowned him, and as she’d held him up, he was, drenched, and he didn’t cry, it’d made her heart wrench to see, gladly, he is still alive, she hoped that the little boy will be reunited with his family soon.

The police reviewed the surveillance footages, and found, that at around eleven two nights ago, a young woman dropped off two bags from Anxi Road to the Mineral Center, suspected, that she was the woman who’d abandoned the child, they’re going to track her down.

And so, this is the story, of how an abandoned infant boy almost died.  Can you imagine, someone who is so cruel, so awful, to drop a child off, and, had the woman not discovered him, he would’ve been dead by now, but gladly, the child was found, with NO serious injuries.

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A Mother, with a DEAD Fetus

This, is what I am………oh, wait a sec, I’m still a VIRGIN, meaning that I’d never done THAT!

A mother, with a dead fetus, how’d that happen?  Did someone CUT it (the sex is still unknown???) out, when she’s still pregnant, like in an abortion?  Or, did she actively, KILL “it”, because she’s NOT yet ready, to take on the responsibilities of being a mom?

A mother, with a DEAD fetus, how could she have gotten that abortion, on her own child?  Didn’t she see, ALL the things she would’ve gotten to do, with this supposed, but now, DEAD and NONEXISTENT “child” of hers?  Was she NOT excited, like all those first time mothers, mothers-to-be, expectant, of her first born?

A mother, with a DEAD fetus, it (the fetus) was, CUT out of her, as it was, agreed, by the family of the guy who KNOCKED her up, because he was, already married, and from a well-known family, that just couldn’t weather through ONE more scandal, and so, this woman’s ILLEGITIMATE baby boy or girl (as the sex is still, undetermined???), got CUT out of her, and, the mother had only  but a minute’s time, to say goodbye, to that DEAD, not-yet-formed completely FETUS of hers…………

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The Six-Year-Old Daughter Gave Her Mother Away, the DNA Showed, that She Wasn’t His Child at All

Words, out of mouths of babes, from the Front Page Sections, translated…

The young daughter of a man, Wu, often spoke of how she has another daddy, last year, Wu took his daughter to get her DNA checked out, and, the child was unrelated to him by blood; he’d recalled how eight to ten months before his daughter was born, his wife who was originally frigid and not sexually turned on at all had asked him to have sex with her multiple times, , it was, to cover up the fact, that she was already pregnant, he’d filed for a law suit.  His ex-wife, who had already agreed to divorce him claimed, that when she was on a business trip, she was knocked out, then raped, and that, was how she got knocked up.  The judge didn’t believe her, mandated that she must pay her ex-husband one million dollars N.T., the case can still be appealed.

Wu’s complaints pointed out, that a decade ago, he’d married, and right after his wife and he were wed, his wife would take several business trips to China, they slowly fell out of love, rarely consummated; a little over seven years ago, his wife gave birth to a daughter, as the child grows up, a lot of his friends and families pointed out, that the child does not look like him at all, and he’d even heard his daughter told that she “has another dad”.

When the child was six, she’d gone on a trip with his wife, after the child came home, she’d told her grandmother, that she had gone to her other dad’s house, that mom took showers, slept, and cooked there, everybody went to McDonald’s, the park, then, to the shopping strip, and that the other “dad” also bought her toys.

Back then, he was starting to get suspicious, at the start of last year, he’d taken his daughter to the hospital for a paternity test, and, the results proved, that she wasn’t his at all, he felt taken, for taking care of someone else’s child for so many years, as he’d grilled his wife, she’d denied having had an affair, he got furious, and filed for a divorce with the courts, and, after the case went to family court, the divorce was granted.

Wu pointed out, that ten to eight months before his daughter was born, his ex-wife had found him to have sex several times, clearly, it was, to cover up her own infidelity; as the case went up to the Taipei District Courts, the ex-wife denied having had an affair, claimed, that because she’d gone on business trips to China a lot back then, she’d needed to drink with the business associates, that she may have been date raped, that, was how she’d gotten pregnant.

The judge believed, that if someone was drugged or raped, the person would be likely to notify the police, or tell it to someone she trusted, a friend, or members of one’s own family, Wu’s ex-wife couldn’t provide witnesses or any evidences, and so, the judge did not take her words for it, believed, that her daughter was conceived from her affair.

And so, that still just shows, that infidelities are NOT a specialty of men, that women can cheat too.

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