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The Nightmares Followed, Closely Behind Her

The nightmares followed, closely behind her, and, no matter how hard she’d tried, she just, couldn’t outrun them…

Started way back in her childhood days, after her daddy “made” her into his “special pal”, she’d been having these nightmares, but, she couldn’t tell mama, because she didn’t want to cause her any MORE trouble, because her mama was having marital difficulties with her daddy, and soon, she WILL be forced, to CHOOSE sides!

The nightmares followed, closely behind her, she thought she’d gotten rid of them, by outgrowing them up, but, she was mistaken, because the nightmares grew, just as she’d done, and now, they’d become, even LARGER, even MORE fierce, more gnawing on her mind and heart.

The nightmares followed, closely behind her, and, no matter how hard she’d run, she couldn’t escape them, and, all she could do, was R-U-N!!!  The nightmares followed, closely behind her, until the moment she’d swallowed her last dying breath, then, she’s released, from the haunting of her nightmares, while her families cried their eyes out, because she’d died, her spirit felt more at peace than ever………

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The Nightmares Carried Over into Adulthood…

This, is still, ALL from MY understanding of life here…

The nightmares you’d had since when you were children, will get carried, INTO your adulthood years, only that they’d manifested (yeah, BIG word!!!) themselves into something else, and, are, affecting you, in the various realms of your lives…

The nightmares carried over into adulthood, primarily, because they didn’t get completely resolved (look that up too, why don’t ya!!!) earlier, and, because you’d put off dealing, either consciously, SUB-consciously, or even UN-consciously, with them for so long, they’d become, suppressed, into that LEVEL of depth, and, it’s gonna take HELL to FREEZE (and, look at how the temperature’s currently droppin’ right now!!!), to bring ‘em all back up and OUT again.

The nightmares carried over into adulthood, because as a child, you’d felt scared, and maybe, cried out for your parents, but, uh, they’re way too busy, discussing who did what wrong to whom, that they’d, neglected to pay ANY needed attention to you, and, you WERE once, a very long time ago, the “product” of their love (product of a consented FUCK is more like it if you ask me!), and, therefore, you’d D-I-E-D, and that part of you that’s gotten taken out of your childhood (it’s called INNOCENCE, you MORONS!!!), well, it still hurt, don’t it?  And, it will, KEEP on hurting, gnawing on you, until one day, you finally deal with it, which, is quite unlikely, because all you will keep on doing, is sweepin’ ‘em GARBAGE, right underneath those big ol’ rugs of YO lives!  And this is still???  Oh yeah, my B-A-D (when’s it MY “good”???): NOT my P-R-O-B-L-E-M!!!

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Carried Our Invisible Scars from Childhood

Childhood had, really, brutalized us all, didn’t it???

Carried our invisible scars from childhood, we all had, and, for some of us, those invisible scars from when we were younger started showing up, without any apparent reason at all, how O-D-D?

Carried our invisible scars from childhood, that, was what we’d done, and through time, they’d hurt every once in awhile, and we’d chosen, to ignore the aches and the pains.

Carried our invisible scars from childhood, we wore them, without even knowing, that they were there, because they were, invisible, to the naked eyes.  Carried our invisible scars from childhood, we don’t know how they’d gotten on us, perhaps, we were too rowdy and, made a mess, and, as a punishment, these invisible scars, they came to us, to serve as reminders of our wild and rowdy pasts, who knows???

Carried our invisible scars from childhood, there’s no doubt, we all had, but, how come, for some of us, we’re still, bugged, by those invisible scars from our childhoods, shouldn’t we have, left them all, behind already?  Carried our invisible scars from childhood, and, they’d all, tagged along, wherever we will be, there’s NO way we can get rid of them.

 

 

 

 

 

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