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Traumatized, Between a Parent & a Child

The adults’ careless words that impacted a child into the adulthood years, this showed the extent of your words, and their effects in your children’s lives, translated…

When I was five, I’d always, slept, with upside down on my parents’, bed, they couldn’t understand why I’d needed to sleep with them, and, they couldn’t, get me to stop climbing in next to them in the middle of the nights, but, because I’d, adjusted my sleeping postures soon enough, they’d, allowed me to sleep with them, and they’d, forgotten this, tiny interlude of my, childhood years.

But I still remember something that upset me during this period of time. 

Late one night, I suddenly woke, heard my parents in conversation, I’d not moved an inch, I’d not wanted to listen in on their conversations, just wanted to, fall back to sleep again, but, a sentence that’s stayed with me came into my ear canals, ‘if my daughter was so-and-so that would be wonderful!”

The person my parents were referring to was my older female cousin, very well-behaved, did excellent academically too, it’s only natural, that the adults, loved her so, but, am I, really, that awful?  I’d started, to cry in the darkness, until my parents finished their conversations, fell asleep, I’d, still, stayed, wide awake, shocked, at this “secret” I’d heard.

“So, mom and dad don’t love me”, this thought started, rooting itself down inside of my young mind, and after this long, even though, the vines that entangled me in were, already, cut off almost, completely, but, I couldn’t, uproot this thought one bit.

The adults may think, that children can’t understand, or that they forget easily, and sometimes, their, careless words, blurted out, had caused the traumas in your young’s mind forever.

And this is precisely W-H-Y, you FUCKING (don’t pardon me here!!!) adults need to WATCH what you say in front of your kids, because even IF you think they’re not listening, their eyes are still, watching G-O-D, with their ears, tuned IN to your words, so, DO take this into consideration, the next time you want to blurt something out, even IF you don’t mean it so seriously, your young will, take it to heart, ‘cuz that’s, what we, children, ALL do!!!

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Maintained His Silence

Yeah, that, was what he CHOSE to do, after all, “anything you say can and WILL BE hold against you in the court of law”???

Maintained his silence, because he recalled his mama’s teachings of “if you don’t got anything nice to say, then, don’t say NOTHING at all!!!”  Maintained his silence throughout his childhood years, as he saw his daddy, beating up his mama, and, he felt the hurt and the pains that his mama was going through, and he’d made a vow, that he will NEVER be a wife beater like his dad.

Maintained his silence, and watched his own child get raped by his own parents, there was NOTHING he could’ve done, even though he’s already a GROWN man, and he SHOULD BE protecting his own offspring, but, his parents WERE his offspring’s abusers, and how, is he, to stand UP to his own parents?

Maintained his silence, and, nobody can make him talk again, because he’d carried those deep, dark secrets, into HIS graves, and, we all know how the dead don’t squeal on the living here, don’t we???

So he will, keep maintaining his silence, as he’d never been a man of that many words, and, people had mistaken him for dumb (not able to talk, not STUPID!!!)…

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