Huang: Writing on FB, Getting Along with My Illness, “Everybody, I’m Experiencing My High Cycles of Bipolar Right Now”

Opening themselves up, to the online community, off of the Front Page Sections, translated…

Telling the World about Their Depressions, They’d Fought BACK the Tabooed Names of Mental Illnesses

“I really want to die”, Huang had posted the line on FB many a times, sometimes, she’d told the process of slashing her own wrists in detail, or, posted the photos of her own self-inflicted cuts on her wrists. Huang sad, since she was sexually assaulted by someone she’d met online, she’d started experiencing hallucinations and became suicidal.

Replying to the Comments, Don’t Force-Feed Me the Chicken Soup of the Soul

“I wrote on impulse, because when the emotions came, it became too hard for me to bear”, there were those who’d left the comments of, “hey, don’t get upset” or told her to seek out spiritual guidance on the comment sections of her posts; Huang replied back, “Don’t force-feed me the chicken soup for the soul”.

Huang, posing at her favorite spot in school, the staircases, with the sun shining down

黃靖茹喜歡校舍樓梯間的陽光,她常在這裡拍IG上的配圖。記者許詩愷/攝影
“I just want to be free, I just want my pains to be acknowledged, that others won’t have to be tried as hard as I’d been”

Six years ago, Huang went into counseling for her cyclothymia, and was treated with prescription medications.  This is a milder form of bipolar, when she had a relapse, she may be bedridden for two weeks, only cried, not eaten, not spoken, and mutilated herself.

Born in 1999, as a millennium baby, she’s used to writing her thoughts on FB, she’d told the real-life experience of her being sexually assaulted, being overcome with her cyclothymia.  “Everybody, I’m manic now!”, she’d still announced on FB, sounded like “menstrual cycle”, very, matter-of-fact.  But, on FB, she’d, reduced that impulsivity she’d felt, and, gotten to learn to get along better with her own mental illness.

There’s no nationality of the younger generations’ coming out with their hurt.  The Japanese tennis star, Naomi Francois, in Time Magazine stated, “I hope that people can understand, it’s okay to not be okay!”  Because she wasn’t well psychologically this year, she’d, refused to go to the press conferences of the French Open this year, and she was fined; after she’d won the first rounds of tennis matches, she’d announced that she was out of the competitions, due to her depression.

The famed gymnast, Simone Biles, who won FOUR Olympic gold medals in the Tokyo Olympics this year, she’d dropped out, stated, “I need to take care of my mental health now.”

And, this still just showed, how far, these younger generations had come, from being socialized to not tell about it, to breaking down the barriers of discriminations, the taboos of mental illnesses, opening up about their own experiences with mental illnesses, post-traumatic stress response, and, their experiences are going to, help a lot of whom are experiencing similar things, and, these are, brave younger generations of women we need to look up to.

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